personal

8 years +

No name, March 2010
I was 6 when my mum died. Today I am 25 and it's the first time am missing her that much. She had breast cancer and I saw her go through various operations and I watched the cancer eat her away. I was very close to my mother and I always remember the stories she used to tell me and the advices she tried to give me and which I wouldn't listen to. I wished she was with me today more than ever before...

David, January 2010
Hi. My mum died of cancer on the 5th of June 1992 at the age of 31. I was only 8 and although she had been sick for a little while I like most young kids was a bit oblivious to it all so when she died it was unexpected. I remember being told she had died and naturally I was upset and the weeks and months to follow are now a bit sketchy but they would have been tough to say the least but I look back now and realise as a child life moves very quick and all your energy goes into finding out who you are, where you belong and what your future's gonna be so i've always kinda push my feelings to side.Kinda are case of sink or swim. Now 17&1/2 years later I'm 25 and the last few years I've started thinking about me and how i feel on the inside and how its shaped my life. Looking back now my priority's weren't quite right and not having the skills and the knowledge on how to deal with emotions and related issues have made my last few years of working out who I am very hard and upsetting. One would think that after nearly 18 years i'd be alright with it but just simple things like opening the kitchen cupboard and seeing her old cake mixer or a recipe book she use to use (my mum loved baking,i can just remember that wonderful smell that would fill the house) would make me choke up with tears. Alas thats life for ya, you gotta take the good with the bad.

Rhys, January 2010
Hi My name is Rhys My grandad died when i was only 7 back in 2000 i took his detah hard and never forget him but as long as you have your family around you it will all be okayy in the not okayy but it will help get your life b ack on tack and dont forget it is okay to cry

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