personal

6 - 8 years

Sad girl, May 2010
My dad died 6 years ago. I still cant move on, i was such close to him, i did not say goodbye to him, he died in another country, it took him about 3 days to come to my ocuntry, im really sad i didnt kiss him goodbye, neither tell him how much i loved him. now that my older brother who has been like a dad to me is going to college, and its going to be me and my mom from now on.

Ella, May 2010
my mum died 6 years ago when i was 10, she had a brain tumour and was sick for a long time. I was so amazed by how strong she was and how she always seemed happy. She had an operation to remove it but it came back a few months later justas she ws starting to get better. By the last few weeks she was really bad couldnt do anything for herself and was lying in a hospital bed in my grandma's lounge room, who has now also passed away. One morning i woke up and got ready and my aunty called me and as i walked dow the hall i saw the expressions on everybodys face and burst into tears as i know what happened. i went over her and gave my last hug goodbye. I miss her so much, we were best friends she was my world.
i love you mum

Matthew, May 2010
I lost all my grandparants within 6 years 3 of which passed in January but thankfully in different years.It started when I was 5 and a half im 12 now. and also ontop of that my parants have split up and I have moved twice. I also get bullied at school every now and again.I have also lost a number of friends and other family.I started to feel lost and confused so my mum took me to the doctors and asked for a counsellor.She also rung up Cruise and the first one that replied wasnt the one from the doctors.

Beth, March 2010
Well when I was only 3 my little brother who was 16months old. We both had a illness and didn't know about it and thats when it struck henry. My life crumbled and now i'm 9
i'm trying to find out anwsers and its hard cause at the time I was to younge to understand. It was 6 years a go when henry died. And boy is it hard.

No name, March 2010
My father died almost 7 years ago unexpectedly when I was 16. I cried for months, hated everyone because they weren't him, pushed away the people who loved me most, and still can't recall the first 2 years after he died. Everyone grieves differently, and there is no "timeline" for when you should stop missing him or stop crying. While I consider myself fully healthy without ay depression now, I still cry on his birthday, and sometimes I just miss him really really badly. I have dreams maybe once a year that he comes back, and when I wake up and I realize it was just a dream it hits me just like when I first lost him. I wish no one had to experience this type of loss. I wish he could have walked me down the aisle and watched me graduate from college. I mourn the fact that he will never get to be a grandfather to my children, and that my husband never got to meet him. But still, after a few years I was able to smile when I thought of the good memories, and didn't feel like the ground was falling out under me every time I forgot, and then realized he was never coming back again. I still miss him, but I realized at some point that I could, and would live without him.

Emily, January 2010
My mum died 6 years ago when I was 10. I never knew to take it seriously while she was ill because I thought she was invincible. We were close, I loved her so much. She died in the early hours of the morning in October 2003. I woke up that morning and everything was normal, my dad went to the hospice to see her. My grandparents had been living with us in her last few months to spend time with their daughter so they stayed behind to look after my sister and I. We got the call just after my dad had left, I picked up the phone and they asked to speak to my grandad. I knew what the news was just by looking at his face, I was never actually told that she had passed away but I just said "No" to my grandad and he cried and said "yes." I had never been so hysterical, I ran to her room and started punching her bed, then I told my sister in the worst possible way, I practically screamed at her "mum's dead" and she didn't believe me at first.

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