personal

2 - 5 years

bethany, February 2010
i was 7.when you know my mum died. i was at school one day (my mum in hospital with cancer)i was doing a word search when my dad walked in epained to my teacher what had happened.i went home.i stil did not know til we sat downn and had tea he said "bethany.your mum was in hospital yes well this morning at 11 o'clock your mum well she passed away." i cried for 2 weeks straight. she and i were always close. good night god bless. from your little princessxx.

alice, February 2010
i was 11 years old when i mother died of breast cancer . the day is just a blur now i think back i can barley remeber that day . I thought she would live , that the cancer could be cured that she would get the all clear but it spread from her breast to her liver . It will be 5 years this march. I went to school and got a message that my god-mother would be taking me home i thought nothing of it , my sister came home and my mum was asleep . we didnt want to wake her so my Nana came round to look after us . I went to sleep that night happy and content . When i woke up really early the next morning when my nana told me not to go any further because she was calling the ambulance , so i woke up my sister and next thing you know the ambulance came and they told her she was dead . I miss her sooo much even know im 16 and id do anything for her to come back . I hope she's proud im gonna try and get good results just for you . love you always ! xxxx

Amzzz, January 2010
My dad was diagnosed with incurable bowel cancer on december 23rd 2008, the chemo started working, until about 4 months in when it stopped, they said there was nothing anyone could do after that. My dad died on october 13th 2009, the funeral was 4 days before my 15th birthday.
I miss him terribly but i know he's not suffering anymore and that he's always going to be in our hearts.
love you dad xx

No Name, 13 January 2010
I've lost alot of people in my life, i've lost 8 people since the age of 7 but the one that sticks with me the most is my uncle, who died of cancer. He died three years ago today and i can still remember the daqy like it was yesterday. I'd got back from drama and was helping my dad clean at his work, then the phone rang and it was my mum telling us what had happened, the worst thing was seeing my dad cry. I was being bullied by my best friend at the time too so i was really upset, and started comfort eating. Reading some of these experiences have made me realise i'm not alone. I'll never forget anyone i've lost in my life, and i just want to say well done for everyone else for coping through the hard times :)xxx

No name, January 2009
My Dad died almost 5 years ago and I still struggle. I was 8. I understood, but I really want to see my dad again and now I cry easier and struggle in life. I'm still lost, and so alone. I just wish it was me. He was a good man, and he died. I would give my life if it would bring him back. Sounds stupid but if it were possible I would.
But I'll see him again one day.

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