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1-2 years

Becky, February 2010
Its been 1yr and 4 months since my friend killed herself. Her 17th birthday is coming up very soon and its made me think an awful lot about her. I still miss her everyday and I can never forget her. loosing her has effected me in more ways I ever realised it could. I want to be with her, I don't care where she is. Dealing with it is still hard, some days I don't want to get up but I always do. her birthday has made it feel so raw again. She was my rock, I let her down. I miss her and I feel so guilty. I miss you my sweet, more than you could know x

Fiona 18, February 2010
My dad killed himself about 8 months ago and i cant cope.
i dont want to talk to anybody like councellers about it because i dont like to.
my boyfriend wont listen as he dont know what to do and everyhting sems to be going downhil.
i have some suicidal thoughts but im not sure if thats what they really are?
i am also turning to alcohol to deal with the stress of things.
i just want ot be someone else. have a differnet happy life.
but i guess things dont happen like that.
not for us anyway. . .

thomas_age 12, January 2010
my grampa died 2 years ago at 1 stage i felt like killing my self because i started to miss him so much that's why im telling RD4u iam finding it hard after 2 years!!! but these 2 years have seemed like forever.

From RD4U: It is good that you have posted this message and then other young people can reply and give you help and support. We also can help. We have a Freephone Helpline on 08081671677 and there is also another good helpline called Childline on 0800 1111. You mention that at one stage you have felt like killing herself so another good organisation is called Papyrus Prevention of Suicide on 08701704000. We have branches of very experienced bereavement support workers if you want to have some appointments. Our website www.cruse.org.uk gives details of our branches.

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