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Me, 9 March 2010
He died in motorcycle accident miles away .I knew about it the day after his funeral, on febuary 14th .Since the moment I learnt time stoped and this 4 weeks are just one long day or a bad dream I still hope will end.He was 24, beautiful like an angel .We were together when everything was against it and separated like it's only for five minutes.Last couple monthes we didn't talk , and it's not my fault but I was choking myself for everything I didn't do and didn't say.He deserved so much more.I don't watch tv-nothing, it's pointless , everything doesn't make sense if he is not in this World...

No name, 25 February 2010
my brother died in august. it seems like years ago. it was such a shock and has taken this long to even sink in. ihere's a trial in a few weeks. i don;t even know how i feel about that really. my grandma died a couple of weeks ago. that was another massive shock. i miss her so much and feel emotional almost constantly about it. i think it's because my brother's death's just sort of hitting me now and i love them both so much so everything's becoming harder to cope with. it still sometimes doesn;t feel real. i cant really talk about it to anyone. i wouldnt even know what to say. brother...6 months. granny..2 weeks.xxx

Kaddy, 1 February 2010
My nannan died a few days after new year and ive never been the same since. My boyfriend and i almost split up because i was too emotional and always took it out on him. My dad moved to kent and left me in sheffield, now i feel i have no-one who cares for me. The only person who is always there for me is my mum. My nannans death has killed me inside, and im gonna be turning 15 in a few months and my nan always had the perfect gift and smile there. She loved me so dearly and when she was laying in her hospital bed she was always staring at me trying to say something but then when she only got one word out i heard her breath go and her eye's just automatically shut. I shook her and shouted her name but she had left me. I will always miss her.

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