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One to two months

Daniel, 17 February 2010
Well, I lost my father around 2 months ago. Im 15 to those of you who are wondering. Let me explain. It was a normal hectic sunday last minute h/w etc. Until I heard my mum scream my name. I knew straight away that something was up. I ran downstairs and saw my dad slouched in the couch unconcious and not breathing. The Ambulance volvo came within a matter of minutes. It was a relief when i heard the wail of the sirens. After this I geniunely thought he would be ok. The paramedic shocked him several times. Nothing changed. Ambulance arrives 10 minutes later.... Nothing. Third Ambulance .... he gets a output and a pulse. He starts breathing again on his own. Although he remains unconcious.

To cut a long story short, he suffered a silent MI. It was that bad, that he went straight into Cardiac Arrest.

Apparently, he had a output several times, yet it never remained for more than a few minutes. His heart was too badly damaged.

For the first few days, what had happend did not kick in, even during the funeral I remained both composed and calm.

Now 3 months on, the real effects are hitting home. Whenever we had an argument, Dad would say " you will miss me when I'm gone." I always thought this was a joke. How wrong was I ....

Tia, February 2010
Well I lost a reli gur friend on the 10.12.09 she was only 16 i just dont understand y sumert lyk this cud happen .. its just not ryt... i didnt even get to say bye.. i just hope she knows how sorry i am, cuz we had a fyt a cupple ov munfs befor she died and its killin me i rememba the fiyt all the time i imagine it over and over again . i rli didnt wana fiyt her :[ i dnt know wah to do i regret it soo much. buh we started talkin a day before she died and its killin me to know if she didnt die then things would go back to normal... i didnt get the chance to be close to here how we used to be.. i miss her soo much... i fort yer i can deal wid it cuz shes wiv us...but school is a constant remindah of her.. its a gurd fing tho buh it also bad cuz everywhere i go she was normal ryt there wiv meh... now im sitin here listen to all her songs she lurved and its just maad... everyfinks gone downhill i dont wanna be lk this i dnt wanna keep being angry but i just cnt deal with it... 2 months on wednesday and it only seems lyk yesterday we were avin a larf:[ i miss you amie i really do... theres not a day that goes by where i regret the fiyt i wish i could talk to you or even see you... :[

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