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No name, 10 March 2010
My 2 year old cousin died unexpectedly 6th March 2009. I miss him every day, there was no reason for his death its so hard

Carys, 25 February 2010
my dad died of cancer 2 days ago (1 week exactly after my 15th birthday)and his funeral is next week and i really dont know how im going to cope. I have been crying almost nonstop since i found out and i dont think i will ever get over it. I love you daddy and i know you are looking down on me from heavan.I will never ever forget you and I will always be your little girl. xxxxx

Olivia, 21 February 2010
Hi
My grandad died of olg age and I was soo sad! I cried at his funeral and now coming to think of it its sad but im going to my mumys mates tonight so that will cheer me up!
Olivia xxx

sam, 21 February 2010
grandmother has died

Suzie, 26 January 2010
My mum died 9 days ago (17th jan), 4 days before my 20th birthday. She took her own life, and did so in quite a horrible way i keep imagining it. I feel about a thousand different emotions a day, sometimes i feel sad, angry, jelous (of other people who don't feel the pain i'm in and still have their mums), i feel scared, helpless, lonley. It's mentally exhausting. I can't believe she is gone, and sometimes try to pretend she hasn't gone and that she's at home when i'm out, but i come back and she's not here. I'm scared to live my life although everyone tells me I have to make the most of my life as its 'what she would have wanted'. People think they know how it feels, the don't. My friends try to tell me things but they have no idea. It is something I have never experienced before and I am just longing for the day I feel okay. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere, i'm scared. My mum was my best friend and i'm so upset that i don't have her around to chat to, go shopping with or just be around. I have to be the adult I am now, do everything on my own. But i'm scared and I just want her here. I know it will take time but I just want to see her and tell her I love her and have a cuddle. I know it wasn't her fault she suffered with depression and now she is free of pain. But it's so hard.

No name, January 2010
I am 14 years old. My mum died 3 days ago after losing her 10 year battle with breast cancer. I feel like a hugepart of me is missing because we were always so close.
I will always remember you mum and you will be in my heart forever.
miss you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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