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Claire, 26 July 2010
my partner died 10 days ago in a car accident.i didnt even know he had left the pub we were in together and taken the car.i have a daughter from a previous relationship and he took her on like his own.he was the nicest man that treated me like a princess he was my best friend and soul mate.i dont feel safe anymore and dont feel i have a future i want to be with him so much.My pain is physical and i dont know what to do.I just want to die.
No name, 16 July 2010
my mum died 14th july this year,the hospital staff were great.even tho it had a bad name.i was very arguementive with the staff.i couldnt help it.i wanted the best care possible.not much u can do with a msssive stroke,she struggled for breath for 4 days.everyone in family said there goodbyes on there first day.i couldnt.i kept sayen over n over n over to stay with me.i kissed n cuddled mum continually.knowing well how selfish iam being,shes holding on for me.eventually i said in er ear to go.im sick to ma guts n ragen at the top of my voice.she opend her eyes and gasped last breath.iam totally n utterly devastated.iv tried ending it.it didnt work.im trying again im not interested in all the rubbish that time is a great healer.i just want to be with ma mum,greatest person in the afterlife.dont get me wrong i know what im sayen is wrong.its wot i think she would like too.love you mum.xxxxxxx
sam, 14 July
its only been a day but all my friends and family are hear to help and that makes me feel better.
No name, 4 July 2010
My dad died a week ago, yet it still doesnt feel real. Im only 18 and my dad died really suddenly, now I feel as though I will never be whole again.
Lyn, 16 June 2010
My Mum died today. I feel empty, numb, like I am in a bottle. I can't sleep. It is now 1am and I am wide awake.
No name, 18 May 2010
My dad died 6 days ago. He was an alcoholic. I didn't realise he was so sick and hadn't spoken to him for a few weeks because he was usually drunk when we spoke so I didn't like talking to him very much. I never got to say goodbye to him. I am so angry. I am angry that his funeral didn't reflect who he was, his friends which were so very important to him didn't get a chance to talk about his rebel streak and love for life. I played 'Teenage Kicks' by the Undertones as we took the coffin out to the hearse, I think he would've liked that. I'm 22 and my brother is 17, I really feel for him as he is autistic and can't get his head around it. My dad's partner has all of his things, she said I could have some things but I didn't feel ready to take anything as in my mind its still his. But I've decided I will take a few things that are important to the family and that remind me of the good times we had.
Alexx (again), 17 May 2010
My ex-girlfriend/best friend committed suicide yesterday. I miss her more than words can describe. I spent all day crying and had to skip several lessons then passed out. I can't handle it all. See alsoAlexx's poem: I Accept
No name, 17 May 2010
My Gran died early hours of Monday moarning in her sleep, she was well and healty, the last time i spoke to her was on the phone on Saturday dinner time the last thing she said was "I Love You", she only had food poisnoning when i spoke to her. She refused to have a doctor out too her but on the last sunday she called one out, he gave her an painkiller injection and said that she should feel better in the moaring and if she did'nt then she shold she her G.P. The next day she passed away in her sleep early hours of the moarning, here illness could not be diegnosed and was un treatable.
No Name, 29 April 2010
My mum died last night, i promosed i would save her and we would get through her illness, i have let her down and know i cant ever make it up to her or change it, dont no what to do, got my dad to focus on but feel so guilty and angry for what i did not do . really dont no what to think or do
Kel, 26 April 2010
My boyfriend died on April 18, 2010. I'm a week out from his death. He was hit on his motorcycyle while coming to my house. He lived 17 days in the hospital. We talked marriage a month ago. Both divorced parents, both parents to boys who are both 6...and now here I am. Starting over.
Demi, 20 April 2010
R.I.P grandad
My Grandad died tuesday and it hurt's me to say but i love him forever for each and every day i will never forget you no matter, what anyone say's your my loving grandad piecful and kind. When i used to walk in the gate the warm welcome of your big smile yousd to be the highlight of my day i will, never forget you loving and kind gental hugs you used to give
I LOVE YOU grandad no matter what.
Alexx, 19 April 2010
Today (19th April) I discovered that my friend, Keiran, who's been dying from cancer died this morning.
He collapsed a few days ago and went into a coma. Today they decided to stop his vitals so he could die without suffering.
When my friend emailed me to tell me I couldnt stop crying and it's so unfair someone of his age (14) had to die like that. It isn't fair.
ujjaini, 5 March 2010
my cousin sister died yesterday. she was like my own sister, like my daughter. I am numb with pain, wish everything was a dream, she would come back again. I lived far away from her, wish I could stay closer to her. I love you 'ninni', I wish u come back to me as my next baby. I luv'ed u like my daughter, she will miss u , when she grows up.
anomynous, 22 March 2010
mum was diagnosed with breast cancer and during the same week dad was really ill on that thursday evening dad was taken to hospital he died on friday morning and we dont know why. im currently 13 and my sister is 10 because of mums illness we cant have the funeral for a while yet because she is going in for her operation soon. im scared that i could not only lose my dad but also my mum
No name, 10 March 2010
My 2 year old cousin died unexpectedly 6th March 2009. I miss him every day, there was no reason for his death its so hard
Carys, 25 February 2010
my dad died of cancer 2 days ago (1 week exactly after my 15th birthday)and his funeral is next week and i really dont know how im going to cope. I have been crying almost nonstop since i found out and i dont think i will ever get over it. I love you daddy and i know you are looking down on me from heavan.I will never ever forget you and I will always be your little girl. xxxxx
Olivia, 21 February 2010
Hi
My grandad died of olg age and I was soo sad! I cried at his funeral and now coming to think of it its sad but im going to my mumys mates tonight so that will cheer me up!
Olivia xxx
sam, 21 February 2010
grandmother has died
Suzie, 26 January 2010
My mum died 9 days ago (17th jan), 4 days before my 20th birthday. She took her own life, and did so in quite a horrible way i keep imagining it. I feel about a thousand different emotions a day, sometimes i feel sad, angry, jelous (of other people who don't feel the pain i'm in and still have their mums), i feel scared, helpless, lonley. It's mentally exhausting. I can't believe she is gone, and sometimes try to pretend she hasn't gone and that she's at home when i'm out, but i come back and she's not here. I'm scared to live my life although everyone tells me I have to make the most of my life as its 'what she would have wanted'. People think they know how it feels, the don't. My friends try to tell me things but they have no idea. It is something I have never experienced before and I am just longing for the day I feel okay. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere, i'm scared. My mum was my best friend and i'm so upset that i don't have her around to chat to, go shopping with or just be around. I have to be the adult I am now, do everything on my own. But i'm scared and I just want her here. I know it will take time but I just want to see her and tell her I love her and have a cuddle. I know it wasn't her fault she suffered with depression and now she is free of pain. But it's so hard.
No name, January 2010
I am 14 years old. My mum died 3 days ago after losing her 10 year battle with breast cancer. I feel like a hugepart of me is missing because we were always so close.
I will always remember you mum and you will be in my heart forever.
miss you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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