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my dad died

We've collected together some stories and experiences that have been sent into the website of how different people have felt after the death of their dad:

I saw my dad die and my mom try to save him. I rang for an ambulance but at the time i had a sore throat and couldn't speak properly and i have always blamed myself because the woman on the phone couldn't hear me. The pain doesn't get any easier when you see your mom cry everyday even if you feel better the house atmosphere never changes. People think i'm ok because i never cry or talk about it but im not, i cry everyday but no one hears.

i was abused by my dad and ppl have only just found out so the police put me into foster care, but now hes gone, ppl think i am glad cos of wot he did but they dont understand he is still my dad and we had good times and i miss him

Umm well my dad died a week ago and i still haven't accepted it....i only cried a little bit as he died and only a little at the funeral. i cry only at nightime and i hardly talk about it with my friends. i'm in shock i can't believe he has gone.....people tell me i have 2 move on but i dont see how i can when i haven't accepted it. i'm carrying on as normal but nothing is going in..i'm just in a dream hoping my dad will come home but knowing he won't.

My Dad died a month ago on Valentines Day. I miss he so much and I can't cope with everyday tasks like going to college, or work. I also shout alot theres not a day that goes by that I don't shout at my boyfriend for no reason I just want my Dad back is it too much to ask?

My dad died a month ago and I never got to say goodbye to him as the last time I saw him was about a week before he died. We had a row about something stupid and I regret not making up with him. The funeral was awful as I hardly new anyone there. I didn't grieve that much back then as it wasn't real I thought i'd just see him the next day or something. But now I really miss him and just want to say that I'm sorry and say goodbye.

I am still feeling low at the death of my dad and that has been 2 years. it is normal, and people react with loss in different ways (as everyone tells me). Talk to people dont let your hurt grow until you break down.

my dad died 10 months ago. it feels like yesterday though. i dont feel any different to the day i was told. i feel empty, lost, confused and lonely. he was my best mate, i cant believe i've lost him. i just want to talk to him again. i need to talk to someone but i dont know who.

13 weeks ago my dad died from cancer he has had it for years and i find it hard to cope without him.

when my dad died on 15th december 2001 i didnt talk about it much i still cry at night. i cried a lot the day he died and on the day of the funeral because i wrote a poem and read it, it was about how i was losing one of my friends and how i'll never find a better friend than he was. now i've come to terms with it i'm not so bad. even though i don't cry as much as i used to doesn't mean i've forgot about him and don't miss him because he will live in my mind forever!

when i was 7 my dad died his brother was a bit like a dad to me because he was like my only link to my dad ,3 days befor my 12th birthday my uncle died i knew it was going to happen but not this soon it was like a blow to my head ...ever since my dad died the people i love most have all seemed to die and ive just been left feeling alone most reacent my 18 year old couson was killed in an accident i didnt know him that well but not knowing who has killed him makes it bad for me ....time is no healer ...being at the point in my life where i want to have fun go out with my mates is hard bcause you constantly think is that the person that killed him ..i feel like i need a release from life listening to music by people like eminem helps because alot of the words are similar to the way i feel....some times i wish people would ask me how i feel would things be better if i wasnt even here would people miss me im 15 now and have been put on anti-depressants people think that because im on the tablets i dont hurt but i do more and more by the day the person that said time is a healer id like to meet and probally shoot because they obviously knew nothing!

My dad committed suicide when I was 16, and I went through a really difficult time for a few years. I went off the rails and got into all sorts of trouble using drugs and crime as an escape from reality; I didn't want to think about how I felt and I was scared of starting to talk or cry in case I couldn't stop. I went on like this for a couple of years until I got pregnant and my boyfriend died, and it all came out. I felt guilty because I cried so much for my boyfriend (who I had only known for a year and a half) and didn't cry at all for my dad. I realised a year or two later that I'd been crying for them both. Seems obvious but I didn't realise at the time.

hi my dad died just over two months ago. I still feel numb. He'd been ill for so long and it was inevitable that he was gong to die but I just never dreamed it would be so hard to deal with. The worst part of it is the loneliness. Nobody knows how I feel and I can't expect anyone to but sometimes I just wish I had someone to talk to.

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