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story 409: Joey, aged 15

My Dad died on the 13th of March 2009.
Well... I got told that he was dead on the 13th of March, for all I know he could've been dead for days.
He was a soldier in the US army.
I never asked how he died, so they never told me.
When he died, my step-mom didn't want anything else to do with me, so I got put into care.
The date today is 7th of Febuary 2010. Soon it'll be a year since my Dad has been gone, and I still feel exacly the same as I did when I first found out he was dead. It still hurts.
It shouldn't, not anymore. Everybody keeps telling me that there's no time limit on how long it takes for it to stop hurting... but... it's been a year. A whole year. I should've gotten over it by now.
It's like that Green Day song "Wake Me Up When September Ends." The line it it that goes:
"Like my father's come to pass, seven year's has gone so fast..."
I guess Billie Joe's saying what everybody else is. There's no time limit on grief.
I owe a lot of things to Green Day. Their music gets me through the days when I feel like pitching myself off the roof.
All I want to do now is leave. All I want to do is hit the ground running and just go. When I turn sixteen I'm leaving, I'm running away and just... going.
I know running away from my problems won't help. It never does. I've tried it before. I've tried running away from things, but in the end I realisd that I was the one doing myself the most harm, and these days you can't run away from yourself.
But right now I've gotta get away.

From RD4U:
I am very sorry to hear of the death of your dad. It is good that you have posted this message and then other young people can reply. You could also post an email through the rd4u website and then one of the rd4u team would reply.

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