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I woke up as normal and went off to college, When i got there i felt different, I felt strange! I sat down in my class and all i could think about was me friend but she wasn't there yet, but something felt wrong! I tried to ask Jo if she had heard from her as i hadn't, as i did so my tutor walked, she looked devisted!!!!!
Then every1 went quit she didn't need to say a word, they just went quit!!!
She stood there a minute and then slow told us that my friend had died i didn't know what to do, where to look or how to feel! I looked over at my tutor and she broke in to tears! Then claire came up behind me and put her arm around me and that was it, my whole world seemed to fall apart all over again, I thought after loose my Dad nothing could hurt as much but it did, it really hurt!!
My world was falling apart all over again how would i cope, what do i do! Another tutor came up to me and told me to go call my mum as i really would need her! I called she wasn't in her office, mum's friend said she was in a meeting but if i really needed her that she would go get her! All i could think was that if she did that then mum would go mad, even thought now i know she wouldn't have! I said i'd call back later! I went back into lesson and just sat not taking anything in what so ever about half an hour later i called back she still wasn't back, i called again another half an hour later and she still wasn't back, i didn't know what to do i didn't know how to feel! ABout another half hour past and i called her, mum answered, i couldn't speak!! my lips just would not move and when i did i stutered and it took me what seems like forever to tell her, i think i felt if i didn't tell her it wasn't ture but it was, so i had to. as i told her tears just flooded from my face, i could fell that all mum wanted to do was come and hold me but i really needed to be with my freinds and where i had last seen her, where i had last seen my best friend!!!!
She was gone gone now and i didn't know what to do!!!!!!!!
Loss is such a strong emotion, its scary at the same time as you know nothing is going to be the same ever again!! But Its normal, Its a normal reaction to be scared!
I felt i had to share with others how i felt when i lost my BEST FREIND!!!!!! And writing it i still cry as i can remember what i felt at what time!
I hope i have help young people with this little storie!

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