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poems

by Sophie

1 years past and it doesn't seem real,
Don't know how I'm supposed to feel,
Will it always be this way,
Is anything ever gona be the same?

2 years gone and I'm still going strong,
Try not to think and just carry on,
Try to forget that you ever existed,
But my thoughts are turning more bitter and twisted.

5 years later and I've really screwed up,
But I still don't know how to drop the front,
Everything is dark, all I feel is pain,
I hate myself but I can't explain.

8 years on and I can't accept,
Why did you go, you should never have left,
How come I still feel the same,
Keep reliving it again and again.

10 years later I managed to escape,
Clear my head, let no-one dictate,
Left all those past thoughts behind,
Cleared my head and released my mind.

So here I am, 15 years on,
Still always wish that you hadn't gone
Every single day all I want is you,
Tell me what im supossed to do.

It feels like my minds on repeat,
The record is stuck and it's skipping a beat,
But I'm trying to see it in a different light,
Cos you made me strong and I'm gona fight.

So tell me what the hell I'm doing,
I need you here to keep me going,
But all I really want is to prove them wrong,
And to show to you that you made me strong.

27 November 2011