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Message from: jemma B, 22 Feb 06

Subject: My Dad

I feel so sad about his death, it's like a constant pain in my chest and in my head. I miss him terribly,just as much as i did when he died but in a different way.When he died i felt numb with despair at the thaught that i might never see him again.Now,i feel sad also because i havn't hugged him in over 2 years.I've kind of got use to the saddness,i manage to live with it most of the time i meen,but i have breakdowns when i feel like my heart will explode and i just can't stop crying.I feel better after a good cry,but lately they seem to be very frequent and i think this worries my mum.When i feel down or lost i just look at the special star my father showed me and told me it was his wishing star when he felt he needed some help from above.It still makes me cry to look at it but it makes me feel like i can never be alone.LOVE ALWAYS DADDY.XXXX.YOUR BIG KID.