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Message from: gemma, 23 Jan 06

Subject: dnt no how i'm gonna cope

i'm 16 n bout 6 months ago i found out i was pregnant. den 3 months later my byfrnd darren died in a moterbike accident. wen i found out i was pregnant darren was gr8 n he reli supported me. he was d 1 hu made me feel ok bout d whole fing. afta he dies i aint bin able 2 stop finkin bout him. i'd do anythin 2 hav him bk. i feel lyk i cant do anythin wivout him n i'm now reli scared bout bein a mom. his mated r tryin 2 b reli supportiv bt i jus feel lyk dey dnt understand darren was my rock n we were plannin2 get a flat n move in 2getha. his funneral was horrible i found it reli hard n i felt lyk i was lettin evry1 else dwn feelin lyk dat. i wanna make darren proud of me bt at times it jus feels impossible. if any1 feels or felt lyk dat cud u mabye help me wiv sum ideas of wot 2 do cos i wanna carry on wiv ma life 4 our babys ske bt i dnt want ppl 2 fink i'm 4gettin bout darren x

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Hey, im really sorry about youre loss, and about how youre feeling. I know saying that doesnt really help cos we dont even know eachother but anyway. I had this problem when my dad died last uear, i was always worried about making him proud of me, until i had a chat with a good friend about it. He told me that dad was always going to be proud of me, and now ive realised hes right. Darren will always be with you, trying to help you out and still acting like your rock even though hes not physically there. Its okay to be upset, remember that, but also be strong for the baby. Im sure you'll have a beautiful baby, and look in to its eyes every morning and see your lovely Darren. Everythings going to be okay, Good luck with everything, and try and be happy. xxxx