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Message from: Jena, 18 Dec 05

Subject: Missing my dad

March 15, 1996 was the day my life changed forever
it was the day my dad died
Now my dad didnt die of old age, cancer, smoking, a heart attach, he didnt die from aids or a drug over dose. my dad choose his fate because of one poor decision to drink and drive. i miss him so much, i cant get him off my mind most days
i cry... alot, i am now 18 and you'd think things should be getting easier, but to even my suprise there not, i find my self crying even more than b 4, i sit in my room for hours and cry most of the time till i fall asleep.

my mom has jsut recently re-married. The guy she married is a great guy ion all, but he will never be my dad, i think jsut being a "family" again and haveing that male figure there remids me of my dad alot and how we used to be.
i think one of the reasons im so up set latley is because of thigs at school have been getting worse i find that my closest friends that i used to be able to tell everything and anything to arnt really that clsoe anymore and i cant even confide in them anymore, which is hard, i dont have any one to talk to about it, i jsut sish that my dad was back

ive never poored mt heart out on the internet like this before but its a little easier than talking to people that i dont thing really care anyway, even if no one reads this its like ive got it off my chest.
i can remember when my dad taught me how to skate, we would skate together for hours i never did learn how to stop though, my dad was the kind of dad that did everything with me, he was very athletic himself so i think he enjoyed it as much as i did.
i have 2 sisters one 11 and the one that is 9 never met him,he died before she was born, i try and stay stong infront of them, i dont think ive ever cried about him infront of them, i wouldnt want to upset them too,i cant even talk to my mom about it, i mean if i really wanted to i could but shes busy with xmas so clsoe and running the business and her new husband and now another kid which he brought into the family, i dont want to bring her into my gutter with me, that i despritly wish i could get out of,...oh god i miss him, but im sure most of you didnt get this far but for thoes if any who did...
thanx for letting me share with you what might not intreast you but means the world to me

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for everything that happens in our lives - there is a reason to it. 04 reply : In some ways you are lucky that there is a father figure in your life now. It may be hard - but over the years you will learn to become friends with him. He will help you cope with the loss of your father and slowly heal.
I have a father who drinks...
My dad drinks heavily... and goes into rage quite frequently. The only thing my mother and I can do is try to keep the keys away from him and stay away when he gets like this.
At least you had good times with your dad - I don't have any memories of my father and I other than when he used to yell at me for no apparent reason.
You are lucky you have memories - I would cherish those as long as you live and remember all the good times you had with your dad.
Even though your dad's life was cut short - he still had a good life, because he has such an amazing child to carry on his memory.
You.