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Message from: Beckie, 08 Oct 05

Subject: help

i always say tht things happen for a reason but wot i find hardest is findin the reason. My mum died wen i was 10-11 she had a heard long struggle with cancer n was very brave all through it, i was so naive n i thought she wud get beta thn 2 yrs l8a ma dad, a alcoholic, tld me that the doc tld him he had 10 more yrs 2 live i was very upset at this. but the doc was wrong and he died later tht yr, i hate myself for this because i no tht if i had listened 2 him n tryd 2 help him wen i cud tht he wud still b alive n the last time we spoke we had a argument and i'l neva 4give myself 4 tht. recently this yr ma grandad died i luvd him so much. often i sit in my room at night, cry, cut myself and think of suicide its the only way out of this hell hole tht i am living in. PLZ HELP

Subject:no dont - i know

hiya,
i often think about killing myself i almost jumped out the window once.but please dont you have so much to live for-my best m8 died and i to sit in my room wanting to hurt myself because i am often alone in the house and scared,confused. just think about wat your mum would say if she saw you killing yourself and your grandad so just think to youself before you nxt cut yourself wat would mum think?
althouh that prob. didnt help you
dont cut yourself plz KAT

Subject:its hard

loosing someone is not easy. i lost my brother and my best friend. she killed herself too. i used to cut my self all the time. it does help at the time, but think if your mum and dad could see what your doing what would they say. you might not see them but thery will never be gone, there in your memories, and you heart.

Subject:(no subject)

i'm really sorry for ur losses and thanks for ur replys i am know seein a counserller and tryin to get myself sorted. Love beckie xXx