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Message from: Sarah, 19 Sept 05

Subject: Everyone's dying

In 2002 one of my uncles died
In 2003 another uncle died
In 2004 my grandad died (he was my only grandad I've ever known)
This year (2005) my nan who was one of the most speacial people in the universe died (she was the only nan I've ever known and now I don't have any grandparents at all) I feel like I'm jinxed. I was told the pain would become more bearable but my nan died about 5 months ago and I feel worse than Ever and I'm having nose bleeds and can't sleep AND I lose my appetite really easily.

Subject:i promise it will get better

hey Sarah, i know how u r feeling because my nan and grandad died too. It was 7 years ago now and i still miss them with all my heart. I wish they could of been around to watch my grow up and too see me dance like i always wanted to do. i know they r watching me in whatever i do and ur nan and special ppl in ur life will b too. Your nan will b watchin ova u all the time so make her proud. im sure she wouldnt want u so upset and distressed and not eating or sleeping. i know its hard but u have to remember she is there rite now as u read this watchin over u and helping u in all u do so make her proud of her special granddaughter and get urself bak on track for her. hope this helps. good luck and look afta urself aaliyah xxxxx

Subject: it is hard but it gets easier

I hope you don't mind but I just wanted to say that I understand how your feeling in 1998 whilst i was pregnant with my 1st child my brother died he was only 7yrs old 3 months later My mum died aged 38yrs, in 2004 my dad died aged 44yrs and yesterday I visited my Nan aged 81yrs and i've had 3 weeks to try and come to terms that any moment now she'll be gone too. I don't honestly know how I managed through it all. I see by the date that you posted your message it was last year, I hope things have become easier for you to deal with and remember the good times you had with them. I feel sad today but I know there are others feeling the same so we're never alone in that sense.
Take care and all the best to you.