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Message from: Steve H, 27 July 05

Subject: The void

I have been reading messages for weeks now and feel that i shouldnt post a message because my father was killed so long ago . i decided that i should, because i feel that i can offer help if it is needed. My father died when i was two years old. I have a huge void inside me where im sure something should be. Dont get me wrong my mother is one of this worlds stars and i will always love her for bringing me and my brother up without fault. But there is this pain inside me, as if quesations are left un answered. i dont know his voice, his personality i just have emptiness where clarity should be. I miss him without knowing what im missing . I live for his memory and living my life to the fullest is the best way way to honor him. Remember not just the good times but all times. He is my biggest loss, but i wouldnt be here without him and i cherish everyday for that.

Subject: I know your pain

Hi, I am 16 and i lost my dad when I was 11 months old on the 26th April 1990. He was shot by accident. He was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I just cant move on like you and I need to know what my dad sounded like what he looked like what he found funny what he smelt like. Just all the things that my friends take for granted I long for every day. Like you my mum was amazing after being widowed when she was 28 she regained her strength and bought up me and my brother who was 2 when my dad died like you. I know i will never get the clarity I wish for but I also know that my dad will always be there somewhere looking over me. And I hope you feel the same. Please respond so we can talk. love Hannah xx

Subject:can i talk to you?

I am 12 and i have lost my dad he died of heart disease a month ago.I miss him so much and i have to face going to school again.I am on my mates computer so if you want to talk we can.love from hannah .