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Message from: lin, 13 June 05

Subject: dad

its 2 years nxt month since my dad commited suicide. its been really hard and it doesnt seem like 2 years but i feel really guilty, was it selfish wot he did? i feel as though i didnt know him. none of my m8s can relate to me and they if they talk about their dads they also say there only there for money!!!!!!!! is there ne1 who knows wot im goin through? xxx

Subject: Dad's

I know what you're going through Lin, my Dad died 8 months ago. You're friends sound really unsympathetic!! There's been times when I got mad at my mates 'cos they said some stuff that was really insensitive. But I guess they don't understand, and I wouldn't want them to! Sometimes I feel really alone, like no-one feels like I do. But it's getting better. It's strange, people always say that no matter what, you shouldn't feel guilty about stuff. But I can't help it, sometimes I regret stuff so much. Anyone ever feel like that?

Subject:Dads

Hiya my dad died 4 years ago, and my m8s say they h8 there dads but they dunt know what they have till its gone and they dunt seem 2 realise it.....I feel guilty sumtimes i think well if i did my dads exercise more he wud b walking n mayb he wouldnt of died....Its not right 2 feel guilty u shouldnt, but i think its part of breavement cos i felt guilty 2....

Thinking of u both as it is coming up nr 2 father day

Luv Nina x

Subject: DAD

hello, my dad died 1 year ago and I have never forgot him but it gets a bit easier the worse bit of it was father's day cause I knew he was not there but got through it ok. Bye

Subject: dad

my dad commited suicide two months ago on the 21st of this month, i understand what everyone here means about feeling guilty and not knowing if what he done was selfish or not, and about your friends talking about their dads and you feeling like they take them for granted, my boyfriend talks about his dad saying he wishes hed jus leave and i always feel angry at him for saying that as i know he has no idea what its like when dad goes. i havnt lived with my dad for 10 years,he left me my mum and my sister, and remarried.his wife got in the way of mine and my dads relationship, as me and her never got along.i dont know wether to be angry at my dad,or to feel sorry for him. i keep thinking of what i ws doing at the time he was found, does anyone else do tht?i always missed him anyway, i dont know if he loved me or not, thers no explanation, i never got to say sorry for the hurtful things i said and i never got to tell him i do love him. i cant bear to go to where hes buried, i feel im being strong but my boyfriend tells me different, that im depressed about life and im bottling things etc. im still crying and stuff but thts normal right, i, like you, feel no one understands. i just want to be me again, will i ever get there? thanks for reading, be strong xx