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Message from: Saskia, 18 May 05

Subject: To Dad, Luv Ur Lil Princess

My dad died when i was 9 going on 10. he was diagnosed with cancer. it didnt really hit me i just said so many times he would get better that i believed that. each day he would get thinner and thinner and eventually sketetal. i was only in primary school and no one really knew so i didnt talk to anyone. i acted as if nothing was wrong and then at the age of 44 my dad was admitted into the same nursing home as my grandad, i wondered why he was in a nursing home at that age i throught he was getting better i really did. one day we went there and we went in and my dad was lying there i new something was wrong and it was a death scare. i started crying but was relieved that he wasnt dead, cos i just couldnt imagine life with out my dad , he used to call me prinny as in short for princess , i was his little girl and i did everything with him. i brought my dad a little plastic award saying for being a great dad and i made a card for him to keep.
then one day i was asleep and i heard the phone ring, it was late at night and as soon as i heard it i new something was wrong, i heard talking then my mum slowly came into my room and told me that dad had died, i tried to hide my feelings as she went out the room but i started crying into my pillow. i went to school the next day and as my head teacher was saying the prayer she mentioned about my dad to the whole school. i couldnt hide it anymore and i cried in front of the whole school. weeks after that i carried on as if nothing happened, no one dared talking about it to me and it didnt hit me.
now im in year 9 at secondry school and i can talk about it to some people but its like im trapped and no one understands how i feel. it does get better but small things just bring everything back. to anyone reading this i wish you all the best.

Subject: SOMEONE PLZ READ MA STORY

hey read my story above i need someones point ov view cos this is killing me

Subject:hi saskia

hi saskia i know exactly what you have been going through, my dad died when i was 12. he used to call me princess, i spent all my time with him too. When you realise they have died you just dont want it to be true so you put it to the back of your mind, but it soon catches up with you. i think you were really brave putting your story up on the board, its hard to write it down sometimes isnt it? your right even tiny things bring everything back to you, but you need to remember the good things you did together, the things that made you laugh. i hope i have been some help. stay strong luv nicky xxxxx

Subject:sorry

I am so sorry to hear that. my cat dyed a few days after my birthday.

Subject: saskia hunni

hi huni i feel as if ur me dats happened 2 me thw same thing, my father died on fathers day so his annivesry has just been ! ! sorry babe im hear 4 u if u need 2 talk ! ! love u love aimeexxx