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Message from: leeann, 25 Apr 05

Subject: y does no 1 help

used to write to this site wen i was sad, i wrote peoms and everything. no 1 ever replied to try to help and last week i took an overdose! i wish i had sum 1 close to tlk to about my deppression since my dad died but i dont! plz sum 1 tell me i'm not alone and that feeling like u want to die is normal for ppl in my posision

Subject: Message 4 u

Dear Leeann, Thanks for your message for the board and I'm so sorry to hear that life felt so difficult for you that you felt you had no other options outside of trying to kill yourself. We know that you've posted 2 messages before one which had a reply and one which didn't. Not everyone who reads the board replies to messages but people often tell us that by reading other peoples expereinces it can help them a lot to know they not the only person who feels they way they do.So many people may be getting a lot out of reading what you've written even if they don't reply directly to you. It's not unusual after a death to feel like you want to die too. The feelings you feel can be so intense and so painful it can often feel like the only way out is to not be here at all. What's important is to know that this isn't something you have to go through alone and that many people say with time these feelings can change. Maybe you could read about "Coping With Suicidal Feelings" on our website. There are also places like helplines and on line where you can talk to someone day or night about how you're feeling. There's Childline 0880 11 11, the Samaritans 0845 90 90 90 and on line counselling for young peolpe at www.there4me.com. Like I said before it's important to talk to someone about these feelings and to try and find other ways to manage. I hope this has been helpful and you know you can always send us an e-mail aswell. Wishing you all the best, take care. Rd4U Team

Subject: Loneliness

Dear Leeaan

Sorry to read about the loss of your dad. It must be unbearable. I am writing from Kenya and lost my best friend suddenly in June last year. Grieving can be terribly lonely sometimes - but I have learnt to treat those lonely moments as times of communication with God and my late friend. Please look for a friend, relative, teacher or counsellor in whom you can confide. Tell them everything that may be hurting you. When I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING. It helps a great deal. One lesson I have learnt is that it gets better with time.

Subject: thanx sue

hiya, i liked ur message and thought i wud reply i wish sum 1 cud tell me a right way to get over the loss of my dad, allthough u helped i stopped believing in god a long time ago! maybe my lonliness is so much worse because i dont have faith something to believe can take away pain. i really wud enjoy reading a reply and am quite shocked that u msged bak all the way from were eva u live

Subject: ur not alone

im very sorry to hear about your dad,but your not alone, i know what your going thru, after the loss of my mum i thought i shouldnt live anymore but then i thought about my dad and my nan and my whole family actually, im sorry i didnt read any poems of yours because i dont like reading them cuz they just make me mur n mur upset. but i guess that it is normal for someone in your position but you must mean too much to just leave this world.
take care
from vicky x

Subject:sorry

hello leeann
my dad died 3 years this novemeber, and wen he v. 1st died i wanted 2 kill my self i wanted 2 b wif him....I thought i was alone but ur not there are ppl around who care about u, u r neva alone!
And ur not the onli 1 who feels like this i did, u will gt past the stage of feeling like this, u will still av ur bad days n good days, but 2wards the end u will av more gd days....

Hope this helps

Luv Lots Nina x x x x

Subject:Hi

Hi, i am sorry to hear about your dad, it must be awful, but you are not alone. My grandma died nearly a year ago now and i felt just like you when it happened, i wanted to die to be with her. But now i have realised that she would have wanted me to be happy. She wouldn't want me to do anything stupid, ahe wouldn't want me to throw my life away, your dad will want the same for you. Talk to someone about your felings, it really does help. Also, they say that the pain gets easier in time, but i still find it hard. However, i know that, although i will never forget my grandma and i will always miss her, she is still with me in spirit and is watching over me. Your dad is doing the same thing. I hope this helps. Take care and Good luck, Debbie xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Subject:ur not alone

hi leeanne. ur not alone i want to kill myself and ahve wanted to since i was 12 on and off. im now 17 and i took an overdose in july this year. i have no purpose theres no future for me but i do beleive in one saying: you never know whats round the corner. i think of it like hell is below earth, heaven is above and then theres the land inbetween which is earth which has clashed to make a mixture of both heaven and hell. i dont wanna tell you that i know the answers cause if i did i wouldnt be on this website seeking help. all i can say is that im here to help and would love to talk to you. x

Subject: YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I AM HERE

I HAVE BEEN THROUGH IT TOO SWEETIE
I LOST MY MOM AND DAD ONE MONTH AND ONE DAY APART FROM EACH OTHER, AND THEY LEFT ME IN THIS BIG WORLD ALONE WITH A ONE YEAR OLD BOY TO FIGURE THINGS OUT.  MY SON IS 6 NOW, I AM DOING THINGS ALONE, AND MANY MANY BRIDGES I HAVE HAD TO CROSS......LET ME HOLD YOUR HAND AND GUIDE YOU THROUGH THE HARD TIMES BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER BELIEVE WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH THESE PAST YEARS!  UNBELIEVABLE AND MANY PEOPLE DON'T BELIEVE BECAUSE THEY HAVE THIS HUNKY DORIE LIFE AND CAN NOT IMAGINE THE PAIN, STRUGGLES, LONLINESS AND HEARTACHE THAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH...TO BRING US TO TODAY.  A LIFE THAT IS NOW SAFE, LOVING, AND AMAZINGLY CHERISHED.  I WOULD HAVE REGRETTED GIVING UP.  YOUR DAYS ARE COMING TO HUN... BE STRONG,,,,,AND PATIENT.  YOU WON'T REGRET IT.  YOUR DAD IS ALWAYS WITH YOU, IN YOUR HEART AND IN YOU MIND, YOU CAN TALK TO HIM MORE NOW, THAN EVER BEFORE, BELIEVE IN THE LOVE!