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Message from: LJ, 18 Apr 05

Subject: my boyfriend

My boyfriend died on the 14th August 2004, four days after his 25th birthday. I found him lying on the floor but his spirit had already flown away. I tried to reccusitate him cause I couldn't believe it. He died from a cocktail of alcohol and drugs. I was with him for around seven years and I doubt I will ever come to terms with his death. He was my world, my life, everything to me. We were going to be together forever. Nobody seems to understand cause they haven't lost anyone close to them. I try to find a reason just to get up everyday but I find it hard to live without him. I feel so far away from him that I just want to die too. I don't want anyone else cause nobody would ever come close to him. I dream about him a lot but cry everytime I wake up cause I realise it was not real and he has gone forever. I feel so alone. Can anyone help me? I really do try to be positive but how can I when my world has ended so suddenly?

Subject:Your not alone

I havent lost my bf but i did lose my mum on the 10 of aug 2004.When u need to cry go for it.Have a photo of your bf with u and talk to him when ever u need to.You feel alone thats normal but you are not just think of your boyfriend and he is with u in your heart and the wind and the stars.Of course u dont want anyone else atm but u may find another someone special will be sent for u from your bf.My sister lost her love of her life also last yr on the 26/6/2004.She now has someone new in her life and feels like he was sent to her.Write down your feelings that helps to.People say it gets better as it time goes on it doesnt it just gets a little easier not to cry at every little memory of your love one.

Subject: (no subject)

Thankyou so much for your kind words Cathy. You've made me feel a little better. Take care, love, LJ x

Subject: same thing happened to me

i lost my boyfriend of 3.5 years on april 11, 2005. he was the love of my life.

if you want to talk you can

Subject:Dear AArthy

What happened to you exactly? maybe we could help eachother in some way. It would be good for both of us to talk to someone else who is going through the same tradegy.
Love, LJ