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Message from: al, 16 Mar 05

Subject: my boyfriend, my best friend

he was my boyfriend and my best friend. he knew me like no other and when we started being something more than friends we found out we were soul mates. he was perfect, not in terms of loooks or anything, perfect just the way he was for me. his only weakness, the habit of drugs. that was what killed him in the end. we were in a weird phase at some point and he was very sad about it as was i and his friends didn t really stick up to him.at that time i left for a family trip and when i got back he was gone. in the begining i was in shock, hadn t realized things, was a bit slow in everything that happened around me.as time passed i got worse. couldn t get it off my mind. it s been 2 years now but i still think about it.it hurts to know that i could have stopped this from happening if i had taken the time to be there for him, all these if s hurt like hell and i can t stand it. i try to think of the good times but the thought that he is now gone always comes at the end. i really miss him and i want to hold him one more time. letting go is very difficult and i am worried that the pain will never go away.

Subject:sorry

hi im really sry to here abput your boyfriend. i no that it has been 2 years and i no that it will take a long time for you to get over him. but i dont think that u cud hav dun nething to stop it from happening because it was his addiction not ures. im really sorry plz reply alice xx

Subject:I know how you feel, i guess

My boyfriend also died. Its just so hard to pick yourself up again. Simon was my best friend, and my other 2 best friends also died. Its just been non stop this year and i cant cope so well. Especialy as my mom died when i was 8. its just unfair. i wish you the best of luck and you're in my heart. love izzy