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Message from: Clare, 03 Mar 05

Subject: my wonderful mum

its a bit of a long one..
WHen i was 12 my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. Straight away i thought that was it, id lost my mum. But i was wrong. The chemotherapy worked very well and they managed to completely get rid of it - or so they thought. We were all very happy again. THen my mum started having chest pains and the doctors said that it was just the radiotherapy working - but after a few more tests they realised that the tumour had been left a tiny bit and that it had grown back under her sternum (breast bone) after 7 runs of radical chemotherapy and lots of positive thinking they told us that the cancer wasn't treatable, which of course hit me very hard. They gave her 6 months to live and i was very upset but thought that 6 months was quite a long time to spend quality time with my mum. Little did i know that that 6 months would actually be 2 weeks. She stayed in hospital for 2 weeks and then came home yesterday. My mum died last night in her sleep and i feel numb and cheated, if the doctors had told us how long she really had left i would have concentrated my efforts into being with her. I'm just glad that last night she told me she loved me, and i said it back. I will never forget her for she was a very brave wonderful woman who will be sadly missed. RIP. I love you mum