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Message from: lucy, 24 Jan 05

Subject: Suicidal?

hi i'm 17 and i lost my mum to cancer last year. I've been so depressed recently and i have been thinking about death a lot and thinking that i want to be diagnosed with some incurable disease so i can die and be with her. I've also been thinking about how i could kill myself but i dont think i could do it at the moment i'm just worried that i might change how i feel. I'm so confused and i don't think i'm suicidal but it some dark moments i have thought about it. I haven't really told any friends cos i don't want to be a drama queen. please help xxx

Subject:i do to

hello, i have been thinking about death alot recently as i lost both my mom and dad. i really want to die so i can join them but sumtimes i sit and think well i have still got my life ahead of me and the rest of my family. i am also 17 and it isnt right to do anything even tho you may want to i no how u feel xxx

Subject:Suicide

To Lucy & Christine,
I know how you both feel - I lost my Dad to cancer & my Grandad is now dying of it too. Some days I just want to escape from all the pain here... just get away from all the stress & pressures. I don't think I think about death as such, just escaping everything here, & not feeling so lonely & down. Do you know what I mean? I guess things will get easier, but it really doesn't feel that way now. How are you both feeling now?
Han xxx

Subject:dont do it to your loved 1s

is there anyone in your life that you love?or more importantly who loves u? well however low and down you are think about them. what would they do if you killed yourself?they would feel as if they failed because they couldnt help you.if you do feel unloved, dont kill yourself because your parents will always love you and they can see what your doing to yourself always and they wouldnt want you to harm what they created.please for their sake dont do it.

Subject:Thanx for replying

Life's just too tough. Sure there are happy times but that won't get rid of the sad times and they are bound to be many more. Thanks for your advice - yeah I have my dad and i dont want him to have to lose me. I guess i also want to protect him from how i'm feeling. I was 18 recently and that was a nice day so thank you i am feeling a bit better at the moment x x x