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Message from: xXGaileyXx, 24 Jan 05

Subject: Everything!!

i cant cope. i lost one of my oldest and best friends about a year ago and my nan about a month ago. my best friends and other people around me keep moving or becoming ill. i keep cutting myself and want to die. someone help me please.

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Hey Gailey. I know exactly how you are feelin now, I have bn there. In a space of 2 years as a child I lost my sister, my Grandparents, my aunty and my parents divorced. I also thought about giving up and dying,about 2 years ago I started drinking heavily and taking painkillers but that is not the answer, thats not how 2 stop the pain. U probably feel alone right now but the only thing that can get u thru this is you. Your friend and ur nan wud never want 2 c u hurting and you must be strong now. Try writing down your feelins, I found poetry helped. U will get through this, u need self belief and will power. The main thing that gor me thru everything was the fact that I knew that I had to, I had to keep the love of every1 that I had lost alive, I had to show the world what they meant to me and show the world that I am a survivor. Take care of yourself. Lotsa Love Lorna xxx

Subject:Hope you're still checking this board

Hey Gailey,
I really hope you still visit this site & get to see this message. You poor thing it must be so hard for you. I know what self harming is like as I've been there too, & I know that you know that there are better ways to deal with the pain - have you tried the little tricks of rubbing ice on yourself when you want to cut, or keeping an elastic band on your hand to snap when you feel angry? They're little things but they do help. Finding something to do to take your mind off hurting yourself is good too - I love baking cakes, but anything like phoning a friend, going for a walk, playing a omputer game - if you can set yourself time goals of going so long without hurting, every time you achieve one you'll feel a sense of achievement. There will be set-backs, but keep posting on here & we will all try & help. Hugs, Han xxx