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Message from: Michelle, 17 Jan 05

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my father passed away almost 2 years ago it will be 2 years 2-13-05 and i dont know what to do withg out him my had a heartattck in his sleep i woke up that morning to go to school and i went in to tell my dad i was leaveing like i did every morning i tryed to wake him up and he would not wake up so i woke my mom up and my dad was not brething i ran in to get my brother and he called 911 they did cpr all the way to the hospital then the doc came in she said you need to fill out some papper`s my brother go`s is are dad ok she go`s ( no he is dead) i want eed to hit the doc but i couldn`t my mom would not let me i sat ther crying for hours then my family came to the hospitalwe cry alot morethen we went to my grandmothers house so did my family they all started talk about (where are we going to barry him) i said shut up people i ran to my friends houes i told her my dad was like a dad to her we sat ther and cryed then i fount out i was pregnet whit my brothers best friend`s baby i did not tell him till i was 3 mounth`s along then at 5 mouth`s i lost her my b/f was so sad and we hada just been to my fathers funral now we had to go to are baby girl`s we did not know what to do then i tryed killing myself my mom couht me cutting myself and took me to the hospital i was the for like 5 week`s now it is allmost been 2 years senice my father has been gone and my b/f broke up with me right after my baby gurl`s funral but i miss my father alot if you have anything to say to me plz