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Message from: Gina, 04 Jan 05

Subject: lost my dad 2 cancer

i was 11, he was 35, i lost my dad on the 7th January 2004. ever since b4 me 10th birthday in july he wasnt the same. we finnaly found out why after his vision doubled up. i tought it was my fault because we were playng in the pool. he went down the local surgery and they told him 2 go c this dsurgeon bcoz he was avin back pains. i h8 htat 'surgeon' bcoz she didnt even care. she gave him a hells lifa and put him through agony. my mum noticed the lumps on his back about a month later. surley the 'surgon' noticed this. he had ben cing a doc in Queens Medical Centre, Nottingham and in about sept. he was told he had cancer. Me and my sisters got told in a few weeks. He had 2 months of Chemotherapy and Radiotherapy. He decided to come home to die bcoz there was nothting ne1 cud do. We were too late. They said he had two weeks. He went strong for 3 months. Then his parents started. His lovely parents. Who sent him to his grave. Unsettled him that night. Started the coma. He died three days later. The next friday was his fundral, it went well and we all greived with support from our true friends. His parents secretly aranged a memorial service for him, down where we used to live, where him and mum got married. We found out and made quite an entrance. Seven Months of torture, agony, pain, depression, expences and problems. 12 months on, were starting to get our lifes on track. Mums going to college for a job. Im doing well in school. My older sister finished college and is looking for a place to stay. My younger sister is at that age were you have them 'talks' whith your parents. You kno the birds and the bees. But no-one and nothing can ever replace the pain we all felt. Im just sorry that so many people go thru this. I dont want sypathy, i just want 2 liv a normal lyf.

Subject:don't feel alone

My Dad died when I was 13, he was 65, he died on the 31st March 2004 because he had Cancer it has only been 10 months but all I can do is think about him my whole life has change without him here. No one knows how I feel the world is just braking on me. Does remember the good memories not the bad. BYE