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Message from: anne, 14 Dec 04

Subject: suicdal

im very suiicdal and stressed. im being baused at home.

Subject:Message 4 u

"Dear Anne, we're sorry to hear that things are so bad for you at home. It is really important when something like abuse is happening to try and find a way to tell someone so you can get some help and support. You can call Childline on 0800 11 11 to talk to someone who can help you to think about what you can do next. It's totally confidential, open 24 hours & their number won't show up on the phone bill. You can also talk in confidence to a counsellor on line at www.there4me.com. You don't say whether you have also experienced a bereavement or not but if you have & you'd like to talk to us more about that you can always e-mail us using the private message part of the website. We know life can sometimes feel so awful that you think the only way to cope is by dying.It's great that you've been able to reach out by writing to the message board. There are people & places here who can help you and we hope you can contact us or one of the places we mentioned so you don't have to go through this alone. All the best. Rd4U team

Subject: thanks

im not on line alot but i will look up that web site www.there4me.com i used it before, i used this message board before but it was about 2 yrs ago. yes i suffereed a berevement, my granny. sure look at the last peom on the gallery, its my poem , i wrote it a few yrs ago, do u remember me now??? anne x x x

Subject: Dear Anna

Hi Anna
I really feel for you! I've felt suicdal before as well! In fact i tried to take my own life but i know now it was a CRY for help as i couldn't cope with everything! It wasn't long after i lost my Nanna and that was the final straw so to speek! I'd lost my Dad 2years b4 that and my Auntie a year b4 that and i just felt so alone! I didn't know where to turn for help @ the time there wasn't much Bereavment care for Teens i didn't know what was out there! Till i lost my friend about two years later thats when i found this site @ that point i was 18 I'm now 21 almost 22! And this site is still helping me!!
I hope this helps you and i hope this site can continue to help you as much as its helped me!
Kirstie Sc

Subject: kirsty

tnx for writing back to me.im still very bad on wed, i was in hospital on wed, with an overdose on wed, and its fri now and i feel like doing it again and again just to die to escape from this like. i keep listening to r.e.m. song everyone hurts and it doesnt help, it makes me wanna kill myself much more., cuz hold on gor what?

Subject: Anna

Anna i really feel for you! I know its hard i've been there an in away i know what ya feeling! Of course i can't totally know but
I empathize with you.
It was my 22nd birthday yesterday (mon17thjan) and i had a good day and then went out for a meal an a nite round town with my friends on the nite i felt so low i felt so alone the pain started again!! I relised that i was 22 an 9 of those years was with out my Dad (without Daddy) and i couldn't cope, i wanted him i wanted to be with him!! I wanted to kill my self!I've got a real small mark on my wrist where i started to cut my self but thank god i didn't go through with it!! i took a breath in and in a way came too!! And I went back to my friend and cried, for once i let other people see how i was feeling and it was a good relise and i know my friends are always there for me i can always trust them! They liston to me no matter what! Its hard thing to do trying to take your own life and most people don't understand it and think its selfish! In a way i see their point but they've never been @ that really low point where everything around you has no meaning! An the pain of how you are feeling hurts so much you can't take anymore!! They don't understand! They say talk but thats the hardist thing you can do it sounds so strange but to get those words out of your mouth it really hurts! The pain is un really and thats one thing you can't understand unless you've been there yourself!!
I hope you are ok!
I hope this has helped i don't know if it will but i hope it has!
Take care
Luv
Kirstie Sc

Subject:kirsty

dear kirsty,

i walked out of my job on dec 22nd, like 2 days before xmas, the busiest day of the year almost,i worked in tescos but i couldnt take it anymore, so i just walked out.

i had a bad xmas with no money etc, but i start my job tomorrow monday 24th jan, in marks and spencers cafe but im so nervos that i feel like taking an overdose.

i kinda know how u feel cuz u told me in ur message.believe it or not im 22 yrs old as well, 7/6/82!!! so we got something in common.

yrs go by and thats scary cuz i look back and see how much time i wasted not doing certain things etc.

i left college in oct cuz i was so depressed that i could not cope, i hope i can go back in sept, i was doing theology.

luv anne x x x

Subject:A message for Anne

Hiya Anne Its me kirstie sorry i never got back to you! I've been really low just lately and have been put on antidepressionts by my Doctor! I'm getting better loads better than i was! I'll get there i'm sure!
Anyway hunny hows that job @ M&S cafe going?
Can't believe we're the same age thats mad, we have lots in common! As i to work in cafe, i used to work for Allders b4 they got sold off our store got sold to phillip Green so we're now BHS!! Not so good i enjoyed working for Allders, i had started to really like the job and i had been asked to step in as temp section leader of the cafe while things got sorted!! But then we went into administration and got sold off to crappy BHS!! Who i don't like working for and its made my depression even worse than it was in the first place!!
Anyway hun hows things going with you?
i hope things aren't to bad!
And i hope you get this message ok!
Take care hun
Luv
Kirstie

Subject: message for anne

Hi Anne its Kirstie i was just wondering how things are with you?
Better than when i last heard from you i hope! I've been so up and down and been ill as well i've had a few Fits and black outs so i've been in hospital been put through loads of test some for epilpcy and some for my Blood Pressure!
I hope your keeping well
take care
Kirstie