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Message from: *emm* , 15 Nov 04

Subject: my cousin

in july 2002 i lost 1 of my cousins. he was so kl, he was more like a older brother to me, he taught me how to play electric guitar, got me into 'his' kind of music an it was great. i miss him sooooo much tho, it has been over 2 years now and his 19th birthday would have been comeing up soon. his death was so sudden i still dont think i have taken it all in, i know this sounds stuipd but i really cant believe that im never gonna c him again :( i have tried talking to my friends about how i feel and they just dnt want to know, i dnt think i could talk 2 my family because it would be to upsetting. i dont no wot to do, its still getting harder as time goes on. its like im in a night mare waiting for some 1 to come along and pinch me and wake me up, unfortunatly its not.... i dont no wot to do, do i need help or some 1 to talk 2???? :(

Subject:I know how you feel. you not alone

I lost my cuz in Jan 2004 and he's death was sudden aswell. his birthday will be next month. Your friends dont seem interested but deep down becasue your hurting they are interested. I dont wanna tell my family how i feel because it will give them more pain. just talk to a close friend, if you cant do that write your feelings down on paper, make a memory box, all the memory'sd u have and the things what you remind you off him, and when u miss him so much look at the box. i am still heart-broken because of my cuz, but in time the pain will heal. just take one day at a time and see how things get.if you ever need anymore advice just contact me again.
your not alone, there is 1000 of people in the world who have the same feelings as us.
shelley

Subject:Friend

I feel the exact same, im soo sorry this had to happen to you too, my cousin who was 16 years old, who was soo young and healthy, got diagnosed with a very rare bone cancer. she had it for months, and finally the cancer spread all through her body, into her liver and everything. my family and i heard news that she had one week to live, and it was devastating. you feel like you dont deserve to live anymore. we went and saw her literally, 5 min. or less before she died, at home and in her bed. her mom said she waited for us to see her before she passed away. oh, it was soooo sad . :'( i have nightmares several nights and i think about her several times a day. this might be a blessing in disguise, not that i EVER wanted her to die or anything!, but, since she passed away, everyone in my family is more appreciative and caring and close.