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Message from: emma, 18 Oct 04

Subject: I lost my friend and my grandma

in feb i lost my friend in a car crah and they wouldent let her be bured for months then in the summer i found out that my grandma had cancer it started in her lungs and then spreed to her brain and other parts. i had to hold her wile she was in pain and watch her die. then she died in sept and my friend was buried 3 days after my grandmas furarl. i feel like i cant cope anymore ppl asy i will gett better but i dont think it will. sometimes i feel like i want to die i be with them but i just end up crying because i know thats not what they want me to do. i cant carry on. i have know onw i can talk to propoly and i fell heart broked please can some one help me. i know im not the only one but i feel realy deppressed. please someone help.

Subject:we r here 4 u

hi emma you've had and are having such a hard time. I really feel for you i had to watch my mum die of cancer and i know just how u feel. That must have been so hard having two funerals of two people u loved so very much so close together. You are so right that dying is not what ur friend and grandma would want u to do. I believe that we have to try and keep going and be as positive as possible. i lost my mum eariler this year and i dont feel that it's ever gonna get easy not ever but i tell u wiv a real sincere heart that something about me has made me not cry so much now as i did before. i still miss my mum very much and cry lots sometimes - but in one way it does get easier. perhaps not how the people were saying to you but it does become possible to cry less and try and get on with life more. Not saying that the pain will ever go away just get less.
I'm here for you if you want to talk about anything at all i really mean it.