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Message from: Xx~M'z~xX , 18 Oct 04

Subject: Miss him so much

My brother died 5 months ago now , i am 15. he was only 9 when he died , the night he died i was out with my m8s n i feel so guilty that i didnt tuck him in bed and tell him i loved him and that i didnt give him a big kiss goodnight and now he has gone i always think bcak to the times we argued and when i used to hit him and i feel so guilty , i just want him back , i want to hold him and kiss him and let him know how much i love him. He was disabled and he died because his brain shut down , it was a peaceful death and we didnt expect it. I just love him so much and miss everything about him , even our arguemtns ! because he was diabled it took a lot of looking after and so now his gone , i have so much spare time on my hands i dont know what to do with it , i just feel empty , i want my brother back so much. love u alfie , ma lil bro !! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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im sure you have probably read many of the other message son this board and they are all similar to how you and i feel. my sister was murdered and i feel exactly the same as you. like someone has left a great big hole in my heart, i never knew there waS a pain like it. you will manage, my sister died 2 years ago and i lost a friend when i was 16, please dont let yourself feel so low that you dont know how you will get out. i wont lie it hurts and you will feel guilty but somehow you will manage. goodluck with everything x