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Message from: ali, 30 Sept 04

Subject: is it stupid?

my nana died about 2 months ago. she was terminally ill, although i didnt find that out until the day before she died. my parents were trying to 'protect' me i guess. anyway. she was like my second mum. i loved her more than anyone in the world. she was always proud of me, even when no-one else was. we had a special bond. i cant describe it properly. but she died. and when i said good bye. i didnt mean it forever. and she died. when i wasnt there. i miss her so much. it hurts me really badly. and everyone else seems to have gotten over it. and i cant. i cry when im alone. im even crying now. i just think that if everyone stops crying for her, then she will be gone forever. and i cant let that happen. i talk to her every night, for hours on end. i dont know what to do anymore. my friends are sick of hearing it and my parents are pretty emotionally closed off from me. i feel really isolated. am i being really stupid? im sorry this is so long, i just had to get it off my chest.

Subject:Hey

Hey Michelle,

I'm so sorry about your sister, i know how sad you feel,cos my big brother died two months ago, and i've never felt so sad. sending you a huge hug ... jo xxx