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Message from: Suzanne, 23 Aug 04

Subject: I lost my Mum to cancer

I watched my mum - best friend die and can't help relieving the last two days in hospital. How do I get rid of those horrible images? I know she is no longer in pain and its best it is this way but I miss her so! She was there on the phone everyday and now nothing... I feel very alone and scared

Subject: Hello

Hello, My Dad died of a brain tumor on june 2nd, it was a quick illness and i watched him die before my eyes, his last days was really hard and i keep seeing his last momebts flash in front of me all the time.
I try to keep busy until it passes, maybe that will work.
Good luck in life

Subject: I feel for you..

Hey i know how you feel. I lost my mum today (24/9/04) and I just cant help but feel sad. Luckily I have some great friends to help me through this. I hope you have the same. I'm sure it'll help me recover. I know what you're going through...

Subject:Cancer

I lost my mum to cancer a year ago and sometime I get on with things othertimes, like tonight I am plunged back, and I don't see how I can ever get past it. For gods sake it was my mum, I only had two weeks and even then only a day before she didin't know wat I was saying - did I say enough? did I say anything?

Subject: reply to 412

hello hows u im ok i lost my best friend to cancer its been 1 year but i still aint got over it i dont think i ever will i dont like talking about it cus it really hurts it feels like someone has ripped my heart out im 20 so is sam iv been mates with him for 14 years i didnt get chance to say by so it hurts even more i need to talk to someone about him i love him so much i sit down his grave every night talking to him.if u ever need to talk im here 4 u wright back love sarah

Subject: i know

hey
i lost my mum to cancer in the summer holidays and im still numb and shocked, but most of all, crushed. it is unfair and i know how you must feel too, i hope we can relate and i hope you are getting on okay.
all the best,
matt

Subject:(no sujbect)

hello, i lost my mam to cancer on the 16th april, i watched her slowly get worse over the 5weeks she had "it" wen she was in hospital i was wit her, she was goin 2 cum home on t wed but she never did. i fell alone 2 and hurt, mam why did you leave me and your 5year old lil boy?

Subject: Cancer

My Granddad died of lung cancer on the 1st of March. I feel really upset. I want to scream and lash out. It hurts. I can't look at pics of him because I just wanna cry. I don't wanna b me. Help!

Subject:(no subject)

i lost my mum to cancer too. She died at home. Nobody told me how ill she was and even though i knew she was ill it came as such a shock. Ill never forget those last days. Im here if you want to talk

Subject:its not fair

I know how you feel my grandad died of cancer and 13 days before christmas last year my mum died of it as well. I knew she was gonna go but the doctor promoised her christmas at least.

Subject:Sarah

I know it sounds a bit late but I would love to chat. Things are getting better but you have to get on with life. It shouldn't let you down or get you down. But I'm trying. Please write bac! Cat xx

Subject: losing my mum

suzanne i went thru the same i allso was there when i mum passed away i feel scared too i just want the phone to ring and her to be there i was at hospital with high hopes but sadley them hopes came to a end and finding it so hard my mum passed away sept 04

Subject:(no subject)

My aunt has cancer also when she was 19 she had breast cancer. She just went through Cemo theropy so her hair is growing back but she is taking too much pain killer just yesterday she ran into a tree and I dont know what to do but I would say for you is to be happy your friend died a happy and peaceful death. I dont know if you believe in god or recarination but remeber your friend is always in your heart. I hope you can understand that your friend will always be with you and always love you !!!!! i hope you feel better

Subject:cancer

i lost my mum to cancer and i was 8 months pregent iam finding it very hard to go on she was only 50 and it was her first one i only wish she got yo see her will i get over this i dont think so

Subject: Cancer

Hey. I lost my mum to cancer on 20th march 2005. She had cancer on and off for 10 years, she kept getting over it then it came back again. I was 14 when she died and i was 15 on 22nd august i dont know what to do without her it felt so weird having a birthday without her and i know now iv got every other birthday and christmas to come. She got better so many times when medically she should have died i never believed she actually would de, not til i was grown up at least. To make it worse in november 2004 we moved to northern ireland from england, i dont like it here but it was just bearable with my mum, after my mum died my 18yr old sister left and went back to england, i wanna go back too but my dad wont let me.I'v lost the person i loved most and now im stuck with the person i hate most in another country, all my mums family are in england and i really miss them. Help now im in my gcse year at school and i just dont know what to do without my mum. Please reply x

Subject:im only 12

HI i am only 12 and my mum died when i was 9 she died a few days after christmas in 2002 everyone thinks im getting on but inside my heart is being eaten away i loved her and it is horrible because i only knew her for 9 years i am now living with my auntie but i cant cope because my cousin never stops talking about my mum and it makes me fell depressed when it should make me feel better talking about her i have done lots of things to be with her but it doesn't work I WANT HER BACK!

Subject: i know how you feel

oh suzanne..its so hard isn't it..my mum died of cancer too(nov 04),and i never left her side at the hospice for the whole 10 days she was there,helped her through the pain and watched her as she slept,i cannot still believe she gone,but i know one day i will be ok..somehow.x.x.x.x

Subject:my mum died of cancer

my mum died of breast cancer when i was 6 years old!
now i am 15
so i know how you feel!

Subject:I lost my Mum to breast cancer as well

Reading all these messages breaks my heart! Its been 11 years now since I lost my mum! In that time I married had two beautiful boys of my own, educated myself and am now in a very rewarding career, but there are days when even though I'm surrounded by people who love me, I feel so lonely it eats me up inside! My mum was my best friend and since have never come close to that female friendship again. Some days it feels as if she has just died all over again. I think I will always go through my life missing her terribly.

Subject:My mum

Hi,
My Mum died of cancer just over 8 years ago. I was 21 at the time and it seemed as though my whole world had stopped. I was lucky enough to have some fantastic friends, and they helped me so much during that time. I found talking about my Mum and how I was feeling really helped so much, no matter how hard it was. It does get easier to live with as time passes, but even now, some days i feel really lost and lonely, and wish i could talk to my Mum. I guess you never really get over it, but i can promise you that overall, your life does get easier, and you will be able to remember all the good times you had together and smile at those thoughts. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing there are a lot of people that feel the same way, and that no matter how alone you feel, there are always people thinking of you and wishing you well. Take care,
Lee

Subject:Hang in there

I lost my mam to epilepsy i was the only one in the house and i held her as she died i never ever got over it and its been 6 years im not gunna say it goes away but it does easier i hated it whan people asked how i was doing and wot eva i new they meant well but it didnt help i got annoyed and upset i can imagine how u must b feeling and i seng all my love and support to you i miss my mam every day and im 14 now she was everything to me and shes not here to help support me be at my wedding or be my shoulder to cry on and i still havnt come to terms with that i just hope and take comfort in the fact shes watching over me dont bottle it all up you dont have to be alone xx

Subject: plz dnt

I no how you feel i cried when i read your messsage it must of been hard losimg a mum to cacer my dad killed himself when he was only 38 and then my sister died when she was 2 days old.

Subject: lost my mum to cancer

i lost my mum to cancer, she died 1 years ago last week, i find every day hard, as it is the first and last thing i thing about every day.

Subject: i lost my mum to cancer

I lost my mum 8 months ago. She died at christmas and didn't live to see me reach my 18th. I can honestly say i've never been so proud, knowing how she battled it for 13 yeras for us. I know she is at peace now but everyday is such a struggle. Everyday i think about her and most nights i dream about her. I know life will never be the same and i know i will never be the same person because of what i've been through. And what gets me the most is how i shouldnt have had to go through that. Why my mum, why my family. But my advice is keep busy and talk to people. Something like this makes you realise who your true friends are and the advice my gorgeous mum gave to me in her last week was to live life and have no regrets. I talk about my mum all the time and she's such a big part of you that you'll never lose that. My family has been unbelievable and i would never have got through it without them. Draw on each other!

Subject: Losing my mum to cancer

My mum was diagnosed with bowel cancer, November 2004. They gave her 6 -12 months.  She died in January 2006. She died at home in what can only be described as traumatic circumstances. The doctors kept saying she would just get weaker, but mum was so strong, she was so aware of what was happening, so alert and fighting all the time. I just feel she didnt want to go at all. She loved life and her doctor said the thing that kept her alive for so long was her love of her family and her love of life.
She came home to us for only 3 days, but those last three days were so hard and painful. She suffered so much. I often have flashbacks and nightmares and I feel like a part of me has died too. I've found it very hard to get through this year without her, she was like my best friend. I'm 25 tomorrow, so I'm thinking of my mum a lot. I wish she was with me to celebrate.
Reading all of these messages has really helped me. Thank you all for your inspiration and stay strong, just like the ones we have lost did.

Subject: I lost my mum too

When I was 3 my mum died of breast Cancer. I really miss her and it's really hard never remembering having a mum, I don't even know where my dad is, I live with my aunt and uncle. I just wish I had a mum to cuddle, a dad to laugh with and a family i could say were really mine. I feel like I've missed out on what other people take for granted, a word of wisdom for those with parents, be greatful you have parents, some of us would do anything to get the meanest, shoutiest, ugliest parents on the planet, because at least they'd be ours.