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Message from: Fiona, 17 Aug 04

Subject: I Lost My Mum To Cancer 23 July 2004 :(


The most beautiful woman in the world, My Mum lost her battle on 23 July 2004, aged 58, with Cancer. She was my best friend, my hero and my idol. To me my Mum was the most bravest woman I have ever known, she fought right up to the last second of her life trying so hard to stay alive, and to tell my dad who nursed her for the past 3 months that she loved him, until her heart had, had enough and couldn't keep going. She will always be my inspiration and hero. My only regret is that I won't have my Mum at my wedding. I know she will be there in spirit, but it won't be the same - so I will be doing something very special on my wedding day in honour of her. I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU so much MUM!

Subject: I lost my mum

I know exactly how you feel. My mum died 3 months ago from a brain tumor. She battled for the last 12 years with breast cancer and eventually it spread to her brain and lungs. I felt desperate and very alone despite being married and having two kids. It seemed no one understood why I was so upset. I have a favourite picture of my mum and everytime I feel low or think hoe she sufferd I look at the picture and it reminds me what a stong and couragous lady she was. The hurt i guess will fade in time and no one will ever be my best friend like she was but each day the sun seems a bit brighter and the clouds a lot thinner. I know she would want me to be happy and carry on. I'm proud to know that people say I'm a lot like my mum! Be strond and the day will come when all your thoughts will be with a smile on your face xxxxx

Subject: Mum - I miss you

It does get more bearable. You never forget - at then end of the day this is your mum and you will never forget her. I am lucky we got married 6 months before we lost my mu but I often wonder how it will be when I have kids as I won't have my mum round when everyone else goes on about it. I can't say it has been an easy 12 months but some days are better than others. It is so much harder for a girl as you just can't replace that relationship, that's what I miss most - moaning on to mum about all the rubbish going on in my life and getting some sensible advice ( even though it may not have seemed it at the time!)

Subject: dad

i am sorry to here about your mum but i am in the same position about my dad he died on the 23 july 2004 at 6.40am of cancer he was 58yrs old.It is really begining to dawn on me he is never coming back now,an i do not know wat i am going to do for the rest of my life never seeing or hearing him again.life is so tough. i hate hit,
tilly

Subject: (no subject)

i no how u r all feelin i lost my mam on the 16th april 2004 at 7:49 am she had stomach cancer then it spread threw all of her body she was meant to live 18 months but she only lived 5 weeks since she diagonosed, i was with her in hospital all the way 2 t end, if any1 from sunderland has cancer and they have 2 go into hospital if u go 2 ward e55 ask 2 b moved 2 a ward where they care, coz durin the week my mam was in hospital she had no nurses around her cept wen they give her her medication, even wen she died we have 2 get a nurse 2 cum 2 us 2 tell us that she had she had died n she was left on t ward wit otha ppl 4 5hours afta she died.

Subject: :( these are sad times

i lost my dad to cancer, he was 43, he died on the 28th of june the day after my 15th birthday, the pain was and still is unbarable, wen i am older i hope i can use my expirience to inspire ppl in my situation to not give up the way i did and to try ther best to gain the grades they deserve. i was estimated a's and b's but due to missing so much and giving up hope of ever catching up my grades have dropped and so has my smile :( need to have frends again and i always feel so alone!

Subject: dont want to live

Ive just read about your boyfriend whos died ,i feel so sad my hearts broken in two right now,my boyfrieng has just walked out on me ,and it does feel like that happened to him its the same almost iam just never going to seen him again,and he was my life i dont know if i can be in this life without him.

Subject:mum's death

It's almost been a year since my mum passed away and it's still hard to believe that I will never see my mother ever again! My Mum, Dad and I fought a hard battle that spanned over many years. My mum fought courageously but even with her fight, cancer still got her. I learnt a lot from my mother and I hope that I am half as strong as she was. My main memory is of mum winning a golf competition only weeks before her sickness really set in. If only we all had that strength to carry on. For those who have people suffering - give all the love you can, they need it! Take care and good luck.

Subject:mothers death

to anyone who has lost their mother i lost mine too just a week ago.with my wedding just 6 weeks away.
The pain and upset is indescribable,it feels like a huge part of you has gone.Iv lost the excitement i had for my wedding but i know my mum so desperately wanted to see me get married so i will try to smile and make it a great day as i know thats what she woulda of wanted.
It wont be the same not having her there,not having her smile in my photos etc.

Subject: i lost my mummy

hey, i lost my mum last september n i just wanted to say it gets waaaay easier it hasnt been that long since she died but i feel like ive built my life up again since it happened- evryday though i feel different sometimes i feel fine and a lil bit guilty because i think i should be feeling down, and then somedays i feel like i cant do anything because everything reminds me of mama, mostly i feel kinda sad when my dad n stepmum argue and when i got boy trouble cos i need a mams view on things, and my stepmum h8s me!
anyway, reply to this msg!
luv rosie
xoxox

Subject: reply to rosie angel

hi, mu name is lucie and i to lost my mum, i do agree with u with the fact that it does get easier, and i also feel guilty trying to get on with my life because i feel i should be thinking of her all the time as i don't want people to feel like i have forgotten her. I to have have a stepmum, at first i didn't reali want to get on with her or give her a chance as it was so soon after my mums death that she had come into my dads life, but now i realise how happy she makes my dad feel and how much she has helped my family, but then i guess secretly i do hate her for taking the place of my mum in my family. Ive never talked about how i feel about this b4 and it has been 4 years since my mum died, stupid huh.

Subject: Mum

Read all your stories and can symphazise with you all.

Really missing my wee mum..."scenes that were the brightest"
Nobody has ever made me feel as loved as my mum did. Can't beleive God took you so soon.
x

Subject: (no subject)

hi
my mum died of cancer on the 17 april 2005 i miss her like hell
i want her back , and sometimes its as if she was just in america on holiday,god , i hate my life

Subject: My Mum

I lost my mum very suddenly a year ago.  I still cant believe she's gone, nothing is the same & i dont get any enjoyment out of anything now she's gone.  I am married and my husband is great but i feel so alone without her.  She was my mum and my best friend.  I know she'd want me to be happy now, but I'm not.  How do i help myself?

Subject: cherish your memories

Dear all, I've read all your stories with empathy and some jealousy. My mother died when I was just two and a half. Now I am a mother of a daughter almost 2.5 and in a process deep mourning.
Mother’s loss is a major one. But think about how blessed you’ve been to have those years together, how may moments you could create. Keep them, cherish them. Wish you a lot of strength. Take good care of yourself.

Subject: My mum's with Jesus

Hi all, I lost my mum two days ago..  I have read all the heartaches on the pages, and i feel blessed, because most of you lost your mums under 60yrs of age...  My mum died at 82 rather unexpected, she was a happy camper on the thursday, and overnight turned into a near corpse in the hospital and died on the sunday.
I read about one of the ladies here whose mum was left in the bed for five hours, that is sickening and i am so sorry.  We were lucky as our doctors were wonderful and the nurses, apart from the slight mis diagnosis.. they thought she had bowl problems, but was infact a lung infection that caused stomach problems and treated it a bit too late.  However she was old and didnt want to go into a nursing home.  She lived on her own in her own house, pottering about going to bingo and going to her church meetings.. she had nice friends.
I am in shock I guess as its very early, just two days. I have screamed into my pillow and gone bananas.. then felt guilty as hell as I wont be having my heart broken over her having to go into a home, or myself trying to cope to look after her... and then i feel a sense of peace and freedom as I never left much from where she lived as I knew she needed me. So it is a rollercoaster of emotions and you do feel guilty at the times you feel better, and its good to see that I am not the only one feeling these intense confusion feelings..  God bless all.xxx gail

Subject: my mum

I also lost my mum to cancer, a rare type called neuroendochrime. She died on the 22nd of October 2011 age 49. Being 16 when it happened I guess I found it really hard. She had been bed bound for a few months before her death, and I would help out as much as possible. Sometimes I just break down because of it, it doesn't have to be a month anniversary of her death. My brother had just gone offto university a few months prior to her death and me and my dad haven't always got along so I am finding it hard at home. I got told about this website and am thankful for it as it makes me realise it isn't just me feeling this way! I am sorry for everyones loss whether its family or a friend xxxx