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Message from: Alesha, 5 August 04

Subject: my mums suicide

hey my mum comitted suicide A few months bak (she suffered from depression), and its really hitting me now. the pain just keeps diggin further inside of me and i just feel lost nad betrayed. anyone else feel the same? plz reply soon i miss her so badly!

Subject:My Dad

HI my dad commited suicide a while back and i know how you fell i was closer to him than i was to my mum but i miss him heaps its soo hard waking up in the morning and wanting to run into his arms but knowing you never can i feel its kind of my fault he died even though everyone says its not. he hung himself a few days before my birthday in 2000 and i really miss him its so hard when you love somebody that much!

Subject: I'm here for you hun

Hey Alesha
I just wanted to let you know that you;re not alone, and I;m sending so many hugs with this message. My mum killed herself in jan this year and I feel so hurt and betrayed. My mum had depression to and I looked after her for so long, all she did in return was kill herself without saying goodbye. There;s so much hurt, guilt, feeling alone and lost, so scared right now, anger that she did this;. And so many other feelings. At first I was coping ok then I just got worse and worse, I liked your descriptions about the pain digging further and further inside, its so true. The pain never lessons but you find ways of dealing with it and eventually you find a way through.
At the moment I miss her so badly, I;m only 17 and I need her and just wanther back, want a hug from her;
(You can find my postings on the msg board and on the timeline if you want to read more about me!) Love and hugs, I hope everything is ok for you in the end, post me if you need me; crizzielizzie

Subject: (no subject)

I no its not the same but my bro died on the 5th aug an dits every hard to get over and its sometihng that will neva happen. If u wanna talk i am always here

Subject: (no subject)

My mum hung herself almost 2 weeks ago, and it hurts so much, I try to think of the nice times but its so hard! I just want her back, I went to go and see her today in the Coffin. She looked horrible, it didn't look like her atall. I'm only 15 and I need my mum so much.

Subject:My Dad

My Dad threw himself off a building in march 2004 and it feels like it's my fault. He was depressed like your mum, but no-one ever found out why and I hurt all the time too.

Subject: i know how u feel

i know how u feel my best friend killed her self on my 18th bday at my house. it was horrible i found her dead in my bedroom she stayed ova. i jus feel lik no1 cares about me and i have tried to kill myself a number of times but something is always stopping me do it. i was 18 in june this year. i cant jus 4get about it. look rite now i am crying. but u must always remember that ur mum will always b there 4 u even tho she is a sprit she is always by ur side to protect u. lv emma

Subject: dad

my dad comited suicide last week he jumped of a high bridje i realy miss him 2 but they odviously coldent cope on earth so they went up 2 heaven were they can cope and live with god.
there in a beter place now ok bbz.

Subject: suicide

hey i no how u feel i lost my friend an brother in law 2 suicide within 3 wks of each other.. it still really hard 2 cope it try 2 hide it bt i cant anymore an am tryin 2 seek consuellin an talk i find it goin 2 b the only way!! u should try it am here 4 ya xx