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Message from: Kelly, 21 June 04

Subject: I miss him so much

I lost my Dad a month ago and i still cant understand or except it. Its driving me mad, i cant stop thinking of him and i see and hear him in my sleep. I feel so bad because i live so far away from where he lived. And i never got up there that often - once every 2 months or so. The last time i saw him was at easter and i saw him only for a hour and a half and i hugged him and said bye. And i didnt phone him much, i feel so awful but hope he knew i loved him. It feels like a big part of me has disapeared with him. I wish i could get it back.
It just hurts so bad i can remember so much about when i was younger and he used to take us everywhere (my mum was never with us)and it hurts because he was always there and i wasnt there for him. I wish he was here!! I miss him!