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Message from: Laura, 21 June 04

Subject: My daddy!!

Everyone loved you dad you were like a gentle giant to me you tall and strong and i thought the world of you.You never really felt sick and when you did you went to work anyway.you were devoted to work and family and had two jobs just so we would have enogh money to go too good places,i loved thje family trips to florida where me you mum and the rest of us all went to florida all eight of us,i loved playing in the pool with you and my cousins chrs and kirsten.We always made jokes to each other you used to say me and mum where chubby and me and mum called you chubby boy.But then at christmas you wernt a chubby boy no more you were gettin thinner and thinner.the doctors said it was diabetes.You started to get terrible pains in your stomach but that didnt stop you,off you went to work every night as usual.But then i knew there was something wrong when mum phoned me and said you were in hospital.But mum said it was nothing to worry about just the pains were really bad.A few days later you were home and broke the news you had cancer,after you and mum left i went to my room and cried ,i was soo scared you were goin to leave me.You went back to hospital to get you ready for treatment.but when i came up to see you ,you wernt my dad dad you looked thinner than ever and weak.As the days went on you couldnteat and had tobe put on a drip.I felt like cryin this wasnt my tall brave dad it was a weak man.you were only in hospital a couple of weeks when mum broke the news to michelle and me that you never had diabetes you had cancer before christmas and you didnt have long .me and michelle cried and cried.The next day mum went to the hospital and me and mich elle siad we would be up later as we were waitin on my baby nephew being dropped off.Ten minutes after he was dropped off the phone rang it was mum to say we need to get up fast.we went up and we went in to see my dad.but i didnt see my dad there i saw a weak frail man who couldnt talk or move.I cried and cried.but mum reassured me you were in no pain unlike all the other times.But even though it didnt look like you little things about you shone through.Michelle came in with a lolly and put it up to lips just so you culd taste it at yur lips.Just like the old chubby boy you went forward and took abite lol.But i culdnt stay no longer i needed to go i was to upset.I went over to say goodbye and mum told me to tell you anything i needed to bcus you prob wuldnt make it through the nite.I walked over slowly and held your hand and give you a kiss.I whispered in your ear DADDY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I ALWAYS WILL .And my who was standingh beside my looked amazed bcus for the first in ages you opened your eyes and stared rite at me b4 slowly closing them again.I was takin home and my sisters friend looked after me and my nephew and stayed over nite while my mum stayed and sis stayed over nite at the hospital.the next day mum came home and hugged me tight tellin me you were dead .i cried my eyes out i loved you soo much and i need you in my life.MY DAD DIED ON EASTER SUNDAY!! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER DAD XxX !!! LAURA!!