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Message from: Laura, 21 June 04

Subject: Thanx u all!

I dnt know how 2 start dis off, so i'll guess i jus tel u my story. I lost my boyfriend in february 2 a brain tumour, 2 me e woz my everytink nd i thought i wud gonna spend da rest of my life wid im. Bt now e iz gne it seems all my hopes nd dreams ave gne, everytink i wntd frm life doesn't seem 2 matter 2 me anymore, bt none of my friends understand dis! Dey dnt understand how u cnt luv life nd how u can feel so dwn dat life seems meaningless. Nd yes dat well known phrase cumz up "in time u wil gt ova im, nd move on", bt deep dwn in my heart i know i neva wil b able 2 move on completely nd live da life i wntd 2. bt know i wnt 2 life my live 4 im, everytink i do nd da reason i carry on iz 4 im, 2 mke im proud of me. Im even gonna campaign nd fundraise 2 raise money 4 da hospital e woz treated at, jus so hopefully da new technologies wil help save sum1 elses life, so no1 has 2 go thru wot i ave. So 2 every1 dat iz out der nd lost sum1 close nd feels sucidial lke i did, jus try nd life ur lives 2 make dem reli proud of u,until u r reunited again once mre. Nd i know dat iz sumtink my boyf wud wnt. So i wud jus lke 2 say thanx u 2 every1 who has written a msg, u r all so brave 2 still b here nd fightin da battle, nd der r sum reli inspirational msgs dat ave reli helped me thru dat bad times. So thank u sooooo much. Nd it reli helps 2 listen 2 oder people problems, nd people who ave bn thru da same sort of experiences so keep writin! - so evey1 keep fightin plz! Lots of Love nd thank u Laura x x

Subject: my mum

my mum died 2 years ago and i no how u feel u just long for atleast a 5 min cuddle it hurts so badly but just speak of her regulary and it will get easier in a way but I suppose well neva stop luvin them.