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Message from: Soph, 02 June 04

Subject: I can't do it!

I wanna give up, my dad died last november and i cant do it anymore, i have panic attacks so times i just want to not do it nemore. There is so much stuff goin on and it is hard to take. i feel i cant trust my friends and they dont want to hear how depressed i am. please some1 just talk to me, i need to talk

Subject:My dad

Hiya, i know how you feel, not excactly obviously but anyway. I lost my dad in 2001 in eptember in a motercycle accident, its such a silly word "Lost" like they went out one day and noone know what happened to them, i felt alone and sad so i started to self harm, sometimes i do it now as i suffer the abuse at school at home and in the family.

I started to get panic attacks when i thought of death, the thought of never waking up. I coulnt handle it, i thought about suicide too. It wasnt the answer. I think how could he leave us even though it was noones fault, he left with a carefree goodbye from mmyself as years ago he beat up my sister and i never uite forgave him for that. Sharing our experiances is a hard thing to do and it doesnt bring conmfort to others suffering but it gives a sence of not feeling So alone or helpless, remember yor dad, i made a memory box of photos and newspaper clips of the accident, maybe you could try it?

Take care of yourself and your family - they need you right now.

Luv, Rose.XXXxxxXXXxxxXXX (14yrs)

Subject:(no subject)

if they dont want to hear about it, theyre not very good friends. try and find someone who will listen. i would listen to you.

Subject:Hi

I no how u feel, my dad died 6 years ago nw and the pain is still jus as bad. I'm really depressed and i'm sufferin from other health probs as a result. Panic attacks r horrid aren't they, i've ad them and they scared me big time bt i no ow 2 deal wi them nw. Frends don't understand until they av been there which is a pain cus u feel lost and alone cos it ain't always easy 2 tlk 2 family, but then i think i'm glad that they don't understand so that they don't have 2 go thru this. Av u gt ne1 else that u cud tlk 2 or a best frend that is willing 2 listen? a lot of ppl tink that i'm jus a moody teen bt if they took the time 2 get 2 no me they wud understand beta y i am the way that i am, but close frends r there no matter wot.
If u need sum1 2 tlk 2 i'm always around so u can tlk 2 me.
Luv n hugs
Hannah
xxx

Subject:My dad died too

hey my dad died too i mean it was almost 7 years ago but like lately i have had trouble coping with it i mean idk its hard but like when i feel like i cant do it anymore i look at pictures of him or i will write a poem or something like talkin to my friends helps too bc even though they havent gone through what i have they still are there for me and i mean its ok to talk to them about it cuz they can be a good shoulder to fall on so i mean it gets really hard but grieving is normal and i mean ur life will become better soon just try your best to get through everyday one day at a time

Subject:(no subject)

my dad died 3 years ago, and i still feel like you. at the moment i am feelin really down, but i dont want to turn to my friends because i have been here b4 and i think they are getting bored of me. no one can take the pain away, but it sort of gets easier. I dont have panic attacks but i have been really down about my dad. you can always talk to me is u need to talk.
kezs xxxx

Subject::(

Thanks for all of your replies, i have come back from uni and i am findin it really hard. I have to clean out me dads wardrobe and i dont think i can do it. I just dont want to do it nemore, i m tryin to get on wit me life and it is so hard, i dont tink i can do it.

Subject:(no subject)

hi sophie, dont really know what to put but felt like i had to write, not sure why.

i lost my dad about 8 months ago and am away from home at uni too so understand how hard it is being away from home but also having to go home and face the realisation that they arent there.

ive also reached that point where i dont think i can go on, but ive decided to seek help to try and sort my head out a bit - anythings worth a shot!

up until now it has controlled my life, missing uni lectures and now exams, but ive decided to 'fight' back so i can graduate uni with a good degree that my dad would be proud of.

Anyway, i know how you feel, i too sorted out my dads clothes etc as no1 else could, in a way it helped, although it was very hard to do, felt as thou i was gettin rid of what was left of my dad, but now a few months on from that i can see it was a positive thing. hope things start to be a bit better for you soon

take care

x x x x

Subject: My Dad

My dad died last night after a motercycle accident. I just feel the need to vent. My Dad hit the back of a car on the highway. We still don't know what happened but the DA is pushing for wrongfull death charges. It feels like the world should come to an end but it hasn't. Good news for the rest of us right? Gods I miss him already and it hasn't really sunk in. Im worried about my little brother. He is only 14 and as much as I need my daddy he needs his more. HE IS ONLY 14! My nephew is 5 and it is his first exsperance with death. He still dosn't understand. Well, I just needed to vent...