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Message from: Fran, 02 June 04

Subject: my life seems to get harder

Hi, i know it prob sounds pathetic but my mum died 6 years ago when i was 9 and i still cant except it or stop grieving. some days it seems easier, and i know everyone says, it gets easier in time, but how? my MUM has gone and shes never coming back. i need her and i dont know what to do. i blame myself coz she had breast cancer 4 9 years, i was 9 wen she died and i was 2 and 1/2 months early wen i was born so i rekon its my fault. now iv been put in to a bigger ''family'' most of which i hate, and i just want my mum, dad n sister back with me. i hate my dad's girlfriend and her children and i dont understand why mum has left me with them. iv tried everything to punish myself, but nothing is helping. i need my mum. im sorry. x