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Message from: Dustin - 12 Apr 04

Subject: my mum and dad

My mum and dad died last Sept in a car crash. I miss my mum and dad, i miss not havin my dad at the side line watchin me play rugby, i miss my mum so much, she was brill.
When they died i cudnt cope, i was scared of bein alone, i wanted my parents, i was jealious of da boys in my class at skool, who had parents, i wanted my life back.
When they died, i was supposed to stay with my auntie but she cudnt cope with me, she said i was to active and she cudnt support me properaly, i cudnt stay wit her, so i was taken to a childrens care home, ive been told dat its most likely dat i will ave to stay her for good unless, i get fostered. I see my auntie sumtimes but were losin touch.
I dont want to live ere anymore, all i want is to ave my mum and dad back,everyday i ave da same pain of lose, it never gets better. I jst want to be a normal 14 yr old kid, wit a mum and dad! i cant stop thinkin dat dis time last yr i had my mum and dad wit me, now i will never see dem again. i jst hope it will get better.
thanx for readin dis!
DUSTIN

Subject:hi dustin

im 14 and lost my little brother 8 months ago. i cant sit here and say i kno what ur goin through because i cant imagin loosin my mum and dad bt i can come prety close to knowin how u feel. my little brother was 6 wen he was crushed to death by some cargo weighing nearly a tonne. he had gone into work with my dad, jst to drope some bits off, wen he wanted to go on a ride on 1 of the trucks. the man who was drivin the truck was crashed into by this other man who was speedin on anuther truck. my little brother fell off and was crushed when the cargo fell off the other truck. my whole life has been turned upside down. my little brother was such a special little boy and yet he was taken away from me and my family. the hardest thing for me to come to terms with is y him? he was the most gentil, carin and loving little boy and i still cant understand and i dnt think i ever will. i dnt sleep.

I am so sorry u've lost ur mum and dad especialy so suddenly like that. it must be even harder havin to go into a home. im always here if u need 2 tlk 2 someone. u dnt have to reply to this message, bt im here if u need me.

Nikki xxxxx
sorry if i sound really patronising and sorry if i babbled on i jst want u 2 kno im ur age and im goin through somethin similar to u and like i sed im here if u need 2 tlk.xxx

Subject:Dustin

I feel so bad for you and everything your going through right now, it is so hard to lose both your parents at the same time, and then your whole world also be turned upside down afterwards. my own mum died 2 years ago and i not only had to cope with her loss i also was chucked out of my home we lived together,luckly i had friends whose floors i could stay on but i has been a difficult two years,all i wanted was to go home and be with my mum.But it has gotten better,i now have a place of my own and im studying and im alot stronger and more grown up htan most of my friends,which can be useful at times.you'll be fine,i know its hard and it hurts and all you want to do is go back,but you've got a life to live and im sure your parents would want you to be happy.your stronger than you think you are and you did the right thing by writing your message,theres people that use this site that can and will try to help you.

lots of love
Sasha
xx

Subject:thanx

Thanx 4 replyin. :) im sorry to hear bout ur little bro. I know how u feel , like da hurt and pain will never end, i feel like dat every day. I ask da same questions, why did my mum and dad have to be taken form me? they were good ppl like. i miss my mum and dad 24/7, im still livin at da childrens home, its gettin better as im startin to fit in, and ive got friends. Life is sill hard and i sumtimes i feel as if i cant go on, but i guess (like every1 says) things get better as time goes on! i hope it does get better, these feelings im feelin!
Thanx for replyin and i really hope everythin starts to go right in ur life! : )
Dustin xx

Subject:hay dustin

its good to hear tht ur making new friends in the home bt it still must be wierd. wen my little brother died i pushed my friends away i didnt want to tlk 2 any1. bt now me and me and my friends are so close and theyve helped me so much. bt like i sed b4 the pain is still there. when he doesnt come home frm skool or come wakin me up on a saturdy mornin. at the moment thing for me are ok. how are u? hope ur doin ok,
ill talk 2 u soon,
Nikki xxxxxx