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Message from: Jennie - 15 Mar 04

Subject: depressed

i dont want to live for about another 60 years i want to die so i can be with my mum. I don't want to live most of my life without her it's not fair why did she die when i was so young? why does cancer exist it's so horrible and it kills. Every1 feels sorry for me i can tell but they cant do anything i just keep busy but then sometimes i just cry. Anyone feel like me?

Subject: Hey

WHY DOES CANCER EXIST?!?!?!?!?! IT is soooooo mean! my uncle has esaphagus cancer, my grandma died from breast cancer, my cousin survived from skin cancer. My bro died from leukemia, a cancer of the bone marrow, and his best bud from the hospital died from leg cancer taht spread to the brain. God! CANCER SUCKS!

Subject: Ur not alone!

Im sorry for ur lost. But ur not alone. My boyfriend was knocked of his bike and died 2 months ago! i dont want to live without him. more tan anything i want to be with him and the only thing that stops me is my mum. however im thinking of goin to him on our 6months together on 27th of this month. i want to be with him. he was only 15 like me and im so alone without him. he was truely everything to me.

Subject: hi jennie

I can understand how your feelin, i lost my mum just ova a year ago and i miss her more than anything. I never got to say goodbye as she died in somerset and i was in portsmouth everything happened in one day and she hadnt even been ill. I get really low and cry alot. i've been really depressed but like u i try to keep myself busy. What i find helps me is to think of all the good times i shared with my mum and that gets me through knowing shes with me in my heart. take care x

Subject: mother's day

Thank you everyone for replying ur messages are really helpful. Why does cancer exist? There is no answer. I'm so sorry Tricia that you've lost so many people to cancer that must be really hard to bear. There has to be a cure it has to be found.
Little things become so hard like the fact it's mother's day tomorrow that'll be a horrid day. I don't have a mum anymore i just kinda try to think that one day I'll be a mum instead. Wat r ppl doin on mother's day whose mother's dead?

Subject: hi

hi, mothers day was really hard especially as i couldnt get to the cemetry. the only good thing was i spent the day with my sister who has a baby due in july and that kept my mind occupied. hows everyone else and how did everyone else who lost their mum cope or do on mothers day?

take care

marie xx

Subject:cancer

dont worry i know how you feel Jennie my mum died when i was nine and now i am 12 i cant cope and i wish i would die but you cant wish your life away you and me might be lucky and not get it remember sometimes we need to cry and sometimes we dont i cried every night for a year just thinking what am i going to do now i think she is not in pain anymore it was better off she did died not bieng horrible but that is the way life is im afraid!!

Subject: Leukaemia

My mummy got leukaemia in 2000 wen i was 9 she was tryin to fight it bt eventually gave up n died in 2003 wen i was 12 im 15 nw i moved abroad to live with my dad i miss her sooooo much its sooooo not fair it really sux if i had 1 wish it wud jst be 2 see her agen :'( no1 understands