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Subject: My best friend died
Long story, but I guess I need to get some stuff out and all my friends who I would normally talk to are asleep so I don't want to bother them. I lost my best mate to cancer about 18 months ago. He was like a brother. It's my birthday soon and it's hitting me today that he won't be there. I just went through a delayed action period, I guess I blocked out the fact that he had gone, and felt so bad at times I wasn't functioning well at all. I've got through that, and generally feel OK, but there are times like today when I feel so sad that he's not around any more. I'm also a police officer and today had to deal with a young lad who had died suddenly, and they were about the same age. That's also reminded me of my situation, as selfish as that sounds.

I really miss my friend, and I know I will feel better tomorrow, I just needed to write down how I feel right now. Maybe that will help somehow. Take care everyone. xx