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Subject: i lost my sister 4 years ago
my sister was 12 and had spineabithater i lost her through and stent in the brain had failed as there shelf life is only 10 years, the fluid in her head then began to eat her brain until she went in to a coma where she was dieing and the doctors were bringing her back, finally my mother and father decided it was time to let her finally rest were they decided to turn off her machine,i was there with my 2 other brothers which at the time was 14 and 15 and in a little room with a tv while me being 18 was there with my sister so i see the body colour change almost instantly while my mum cried and held her daughter in her arms for a long while.I have never really released it i keep it to myself and try and move on but i cant as i now suffer from AGROPHOBIC & CLAUSTRAPHOBIC and i also suffer from mood swings 1 min im fine and the next im really horrible but to my fiancee i want to speak or learn how to deal with the 2 phobias and my anger as i love my fiancee and want to get out there again THANK YOU 4 LISTENING