Subject: lost my dad nov 08
: my name is richard, I am 25.
I finished uni in sept 08 and my dad died nov 08. I was coping till a couple of weeks ago, now i've suddenly become a nervous wreak, anxiety, panic attacks, sadness, been crying a lot recently, spoke with people from our local church, they told me men tend to bottle emotions up, I didn't realise it would come out like this. I really hate all these sensations. I haven't been able to concentrate properly, eat properly or do things that I would normally enjoy.
It has eased off to some extent after speaking to various people but it's still irritating, having moments of coldness, numbness, suddenly bursting into tears, not wanting to go outside, feeling alone, shivering etc. Very uncomfortable at times.
I just want to get on with my life again, but being scared of pretty much everything atm is quite annoying. It's like i'm trapped in a room with no way out, the only relaxation I can find atm is when i go to sleep at the end of the day, and then my worries return when I wake the next day!
I don't have friends to talk to, other than one or two online, I'm very shy and stutter in social situations. I really wish I had some friends to be with and share feelings with etc....
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