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Subject :every1 is leaving me
im 19 and from a young age iv had to cope with death, with my father passing away when i was 2ys, my grandma and grandpa passing away when i was 4ys within only a few month with eash other, my older sister when i was 7ys and then my brother killed himself when i was 10ys. i use to alway find it so hard to cope with, used to be scared to leave my love 1's my family and friends and didnt do anything cus i thought they were going 2 leave me as well, then when i was 14 i meet a guy hu was 3yrs older who helped me thougth everything and made me live my life as i should, we got married last yr. i was so happy we were trying for a baby as we were both mad about kids then 5 months ago i got the news i feared he was killed in a crash coming home from wrk, 3 wks later i found out i was having his baby, i just cant cope with anymore, cant leave the house or cant talk 2 any1. im due in 3 months and dont know how il cope with a baby if i cant even deal with myself plz help