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message no. 2349
| From: hollie |
Subject : Some days...
Some days are great. im happy, and i enjoy these days, and im glad to be here. but not everyday’s so great. Why did nobody tell me that there are some people in the world who go out their way to make you feel miserable, and worthless, and a complete waste of space? Yet i believe them, and let it get to me so much. I feel so pathetic and selfish complaining about everything, when i know there’s so many people who have it a lot worse than me.
A couple of my friends have killed themselves, and a few have tried as well. Each day on the way to school, i panic so much, wondering if we’ll all be there, or if im gonna lose it all again. one of my friends had a habit of going out for a walk during the night, but one time he just never came home. He was only 15.
im torn between staying with those i love, or trying to find those ive lost. again. All i want is to see them again, and tell them all that i never said. I just feel so lost and empty. I dont know what to do, cos i don’t want to hurt my friends.... i m just so scared......
love
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