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Message from: nicki - 15 Dec 03

Subject: i miss my boyfriend so much

my boyfriend was killed july 9th 2003 when we were jetskiing and collied head on killing him instantly. The holidays are going to be so tough i dont know how to deal with it...if anyones going through the same kind of thing please leave me a message thanks

Subject: Sorry

It must have been really hard for you to come to terms with the death of your boyfriend. I know how hard it has been for me to even believe that my boyfriend has gone! He died in a car accident, he was driving and the car collided with a tree. He died instantly along with his best friend who was in the passenger seat. His best friends girlfriend was in the back of the car and was flung out of the car through the window. She was taken to hospital where she later died. Every night I cry myself to sleep unless I have someone staying over because it makes me feel safe. I know he will be looking down on me and that he would want me to be happy! You should believe this too as I'm sure your boyfriend wouldn't want you to be missing out on things because of him. He loves you and wants you to fullfill the life you've been given. Lifes to short! Make the most of it while you're still here! Love Jemma xxx

Subject: thanks for everything

im really sorry to hear about your boyfriend too.. i know their in heaven though probally having the time of their lives. things will be hard for a while but i know we'll get through it. if u ever wanna talk my email is (sorry nicki but we can't post your email address on the board - rd4u team) feel free to write...thanks for everything

Subject: sorry

hiya nikki im sorry to hear bout your lose ur proberly so annoyed with every1 sayin that i know iam. I lost my boyfriend too. He passed away amonth ago. i really miss him he was a big part of my life.All my friends have been great but some are like just get over it! Its really hard i dnt no how to cope. he was only 17. I would really like to hear frm u pls write bck love becky

Subject: i've lost my boyfriend too

hiya!! im sorry to hear about your boyfriend but im going through the same thing now! my babe died on the 22nd january after being knocked off his bike. im so depressed i want to die myself. im not eating sleeping or nothing. all i want to do is sit at home alone and think of him. i just wish i had gone that day with him.i dont want to go on without him i loved him so much and we was so close! did u fele like this? any advice?

Subject: (no subject)

I feel so sorry for you. since my boyfriend Jeordie died i have been absolutly distrought. facing life without him seems like an impossible thing to do. But things like this happen and like other people have said to me "what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger" im not sure if i agree with this but im trying. Im sure where ever your boyfriend is he wants you to be happy. Brian xxx

Subject: it hurts!!!

Hi, I jst wanted to say that i felt exactly the same as u Katie, and i very often still do but u do learn to cope. It may seem impossible at the moment but u need to be strong. U all have to understand that they wouldn't want u to be upset or waste ur life. They are examples of how short life can be and i'm sure if they were all here they would be having the time of their lives. But syaing that....i'm sure they all are having the time of their lives wherever they are! It never goes away and it never stops hurting but it will become easier. U will neva forget them and they will neva forget u, jst keep going and remeber that u will see them again some day! Remember all the good times u had together and keep doing ur best for them if not for yourself! They would want to see u happy and wouldn't want to be the cause of ur sadness! Take care, Jemma xxxxx

Subject: thanx but nothing changes

thanx for everything youve all said but nothing will change. i cant go on with life without my babe he was everything to me and nothing will every get better. all i do is sit in my house everyday and cry i cant go out! ive been cutting myself and takeing tablets i just wanna be reunited with my babe again i miss him so much i cant explain he was everything to me and life cant go on.

Subject:For Nikki

I feel as though I am in the same situation as you, my boyfriend died July 10, 2003 (the day after your boyfriend). everything has been so tough. A lot of it has to do with routine, you might have been used to being with him all the time, and having done everything with him, never alone. I think that's the hardest part for me, is that feeling of lonliness. Stay stong!

Subject:I know how hard it is

Hi everyone
am 14 years old and my boyfriend died on 1st July 2004 about 4 weeks ago he was 17 years old a norraml happy fit cute lad. In to everything girls cars racing. He loved me and his family and his mates and his son James. One day him and his 4 best mates were driving there car up and down my street (my street is a one way) having races before it was his turn he gave me a massive hug and a kiss and before he got in the car i said to him "be careful babes" and he said "yes i will be" so me and my mate Candice were sat on the wall watching them. When this old man who was about 50 years old who had been to pub drinking was speeding up the wrong way and crashed stright in to my boyfriends car. I spent 2 days in hospital telling my boyfriend everything will be ok and then he died on 3rd July 2004.
I never got in a car since and i always keep blamming myself it hard to get over it and thinking am 14 years old i should not be going though this. I keep thinking life will never be the same witch it won't be we were ment to be going to America in a week just us 3. Know my life just seems messed up and everyone trying to help me get my life back together and be helpful but it don't help. No-one can say anything that will help me now. Life will never be the same for me. What makes thing worse is we got a kid together who is 2 years old called James now i got to bring him up on my own aswell as trying to get on with my life and do my school work. I don't think i will ever get over this.
So i know what your going though but try an be in my shoes lost your boyfriend 4 weeks ago and have his kid that is hard and trying to tell James where is daddy is.
So if you know what to do please help me i can't cope with life i feel like just killing myself but i can't beacuse of our baby son.
Ok thank you xxxx
Love Kim xxxxxx

Subject: For Kim

Kim,
I cannot totally relate to how your feeling. I did lose my boyfriend in a car accident as well, but we did not have a child together. If you really think about it though, you have something most of us who'd lost our loved ones don't have...you have something to remind you of your boyfriend everyday of your life. I would only be so lucky to have had a child with my boyfriend because then I would know that we would always have that special bond. As he grows older, you will see more of a resemblance to his father and this will bring you comfort. For now just stay strong and know that we'll be praying for you! Lots of love,
Megan

Subject: We will eventually be reunited!

Hello people Just want to say having read what everyones been through,it has upset me so much as your going through the same tortue as me. I lost my bf dec 7th 2004 in a car accident. I have tried so hard to be strong and put on a face but right now i feel like i am going to have a breakdown. Me and my boyfriend talked about getting married this year, my whole life has been shasttered to pieces. The pain we are all having is the worst pain in the world, To loose someone that close and have to keep going is a mission in it self. Since his death, i have questioned my faith and meaning of life. My conclusion is that there must be more to life than what we see sometimes. My bf once was comforting me when i lost my uncle and he told me he is now at peace and in a better life and were stuck in this hell, i truely believe this. I still try and keep my faith close to me, but sometimes i have so much anger i find it hard. Right now i am lost for words to as what to say, though i feel i want to share so much more with people whom are going through similar feeling to me. I wish i could give all some way of coping, but the bitter truth is you have to get the strength within yourself to fight your emotions and fight from falling apart. I know at time you may just want to curl up and die, when this happens to me i just see my bf and think of how he would be telling me to get up and fight it. I know people say in time things will get better, though honestly i dont want to hear that. I believe the pain of loosing someone that close to your heart never fades, you just learn to live with it. I used to spend so much time with my bf and our bond was extreamly close and loosing him has left me very lonely and i see no future for myself. The only way i have dealt with this is by taking each day as it comes, i dont look at the future its way too much for me. As for being lonely, i know my bf my not be hear with me physically but i know he is with me in spirit! i hope you guys all get through this and believe me i am sure you bf's would be proud of how strong your being. Its not going to be an easy journey but you will see him again. take care x

Subject:(no subject)

Hello,
On june 18 '05 my ex boyfriend David passed away he was 20 years old. he was a very outgoing,fun, and positive to be around.He was in a car accident with his best friend michael. Michael survived but david was not wearing his seatbelt so he was ejected. I think about him every minute of every day it seems like.The first couple of months after his passing I tryed to block the horriable moment I found out he was gone. There is nothing like hearing the one person who you care about and love with all your heart is never coming back. I truely believe he is always there for me to talk too when i nned him.
he is like the wind i can't see him but, i know hes there. David left so many friends and people who loved him behind but we will never forget him he will always live in our hearts. For all you girls and young women who miss your boyfriends i know how hard it is to deal with such a delicate loss Imiss my david more than anything in the world but he is in a better place looking down on me. waiting for the day we will reunite.
I love and miss you David
Love Steph

Subject: Id do anything to be held again

Hey, my names Tia and i lost my beautiful boyfriend Michael on the 10th of September 2006. For the first time in my life, i was truely happy. I had never had so much confidence or trust in 1 person as i did in him. My baby was 17, 18 on the 23rd of december. planned a big party, a party that didnt happen.We let balloons go on special occasions after we all right our own peace...maybe that will help any of you who feel like they need to send a special message. I too am finding it harder and harder as time goes by. Michael was the funniest, and most gentle person i could ever have met. i planned my whole life with him...now i just think; what do i have left?

I know that when we lose someone like our boyfriends, brothers, mothers, friends...that somtimes we feel like giving in...why keep going when you feel theres nothing left? But you know, the one think that has kept me here is believing that if i give in and give up...not only would my boyfriend be upset with me, but i wont be going to the same place he is. 

noone can say it's gonna be ok or i understand, because they dont; and i know we see things different. Somtimes i think of how many other people it could have happened to with a less impact...why michael? I give you all my love and strength and wish for you all the best, dont give up..just do your best, and know that your loved one is guiding you through.

Love Always,
XxX Tia XxX