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Message from: chantelle

Subject : loss of several people, near death & fear of death
Hi I'm chantelle I'm 22 & I have lost several members of my family over the years.

My nana cynthia got cancer when I was about 7 years old & I had to watch her slowly deteriorate from cancer over the years & I saw her in hospital just hours before she died, that was in 1997.

a few months later I was in a huge crash in which I nearly died, then a year later my gran died too. then only a year & a half later my great great grandma died then another relative died when i was 16, plus I've been close to death myself many times too When I was young I suffered asthma & nearly died from it many times & I also nearly died from meningitis too.

I also nearly died from a anti depressant I had an allergic reaction to, then I suffered from a serious illness in which I was bed ridden for nearly 20 weeks I thought I was going to die then.

also I have been hit by a car when I was about 18 & when I was about 9 I was drugged by an awful sick woman & I ended up very very close to death those at the hospital said to mum I'd never survive but luckily I did.

almost 2 years ago I nearly got killed twice in the space of a fortnight & then last year I had two cancer scares & then found out my great auntie has cancer!!

so nowadays after all that I'm suffering from severe panic attacks as I'm so afraid of dying It terrifies me so much I can't help but worry i'm gonna die young I just wish i could stop worrying about it all as It's ruining my life

has anyone any ideas on how to cope with the fear & stop being so scared?