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Message from: erin

Subject : joe
i found my best friend dead one month and 5 days ago, on April 17.  He wouldn't answer his phone.  He had been sick.  The doctor was an idiot.  He said it was his stomach.  Then he went to a new doctor the friday before he died.  he said it was his heart and put him on lasik...he came over on sunday.  he felt better.  they had tests scheduled for tuesday.  he didn't make it.  i went to his home which is 40 minutes north.  i called the police.  they came. we found him.  he was in his bed...looking at the tv.  it smelled sour.  he wasn't there.  he looked like he was frozen sleeping.  i cleaned out his things with 3-4 friends.  we had a wake.  we had a funeral.  now all i do is cry.  i teach.  i cry.  then i teach.  then i run and cry.  his car is outside my house.  his ashes are in my living room.  i am so sad